Sungguh nyata...

HOPE, my dear Malaysia

2011-07-14T13:05:00.003+08:00

A New Day Has Come - Celine Dion

I was waiting for so long

For a miracle to come

Everyone told me to be strong

Hold on and don't shed a tear

Through the darkness and good times

I knew I'd make it through

And the world thought I had it all

But I was waiting for You

Hush, Love

I see a light in the sky

Oh, it's almost blinding me

I can't believe

I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears

Let it fill my soul and drown my fears

Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day had come

Where it was dark now there's Light

Where there was pain now there's Joy

Where there was weakness, I found my Strength

All in the eyes of a boy

Hush, Love

I see a light in the sky

Oh, it's almost blinding me

I can't believe

I've been touched by an angel with love

Let the rain come down and wash away my tears

Let it fill my soul and drown my fears

Let it shatter the walls for a new sun

A new day had come

and here is one piece of prayer worth to ponder on, love it

http://www.magickriver.org/2011/07/prayer-for-land-i-love.html

to my fellow Malaysians

2011-07-14T01:24:00.004+08:00

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the Unsung "Bunga Raya Kuning"...

the Unsung Yellow Hibiscus...

the idea, the expression was inspired by what had happened on 9th of July 2011 (saturday) in Malaysia...

when i read the stories of my fellow Malaysians who went for the rally as to make a statement of having a clean and fair election... i cannot help myself but to have this intense feeling of 'love' towards them... i learned a word... "solidarity"...

Solidarity - unity (as of a group or class) that produces or is based on community of interests, objectives and standard (definition from the free Merriam-Webster Dictionary)

though i did go for the rally, well not even close to the huge action-packed down at the centre of Kuala Lumpur (i was at KL Sentral, with 'brother' Kevin Ngui), it was not until i read their stories that the sense of 'Saya sayang negara saya, Malaysia dan rakyatnya" getting deeper and deeper... i just wish i could tell them, in whatever way, say a hug? a simple smile or a bow? how they had inspire me to love more than i ever will be.

when i was with the crowd at KL Sentral, even for a short while we 'marched', for a brief moment my heart was struck with a strange feeling, it was like warmth of love? loving as well as being loved? ... and my eyes saw the crowd walking together (most of them are Malays here), oh~~~

i wanted to cry!

"Thank You Lord, for all this... for today... for Your love upon this country and her people... they are just lovely..."

it was like wanting to stop and fall on the ground and cry my heart out in thankfulness?

and go around and hug them? and say 'i love you'?

but it was also this other side of feeling that is like...

"oh Malaysia, kenapa sampai terjadinya hari ini... until the rakyat have to come out and march as a call for 'clean & fair election', ultimately FREEDOM... all this while you are of the peaceful and quiet one, but today you're shaken, struggling to break free? ... the silence is now broken..."

what happened in Egypt, Syria etc is no longer a tv news from a distance...

it is happening NOW in this peaceful country... Malaysia...

it's like the myth of Malaysia being 'always a peaceful nation', is no longer the myth...

and the people...

Your cries...

Your tears...

Your struggle to be FREE...

Your fight and effort to make a better Malaysia...

you are like never in the sight of others, never noticed? perhaps the others chose not to bother about you...

Being denied...

BUT, though your walk that day was only about a few hours,

you have already spread out the semangat "Saya cinta Malaysia"...

on the streets...

right through the tv and monitor screen...

and by your own stories...

and thus the Bunga Raya Kuning...

your brightness will continue to shine across this land of yours...

in the darkness, now that you have blossomed, will light up the country with hope...

and FREEDOM is on His way... to you...

p/s: many more to write & so much more to express but is limited to do so in just plain words

Undi Hantu?? --- the phantom votes??

2011-07-13T14:19:00.002+08:00

alright... this is ridiculously amaze me...

both born on 1880s??? and still exist in the voters list?

230 years old! wao~~~ must be some wolverines and claire bennets, whose existence is unknown to the people of Malaysia until recently?

to all wolverine fans and claire bennet fans... do come to Malaysia and hunt one of them for yourselves, HA... HA... (cynical)

AND so... the cause of BERSIH is plausible.

The "Unsung Bunga Raya Kuning"

2011-07-12T16:18:00.001+08:00

the "Unsung Bunga Raya Kuning"...

Semarak-mu bernyala membakar hati Anak Bangsa Malaysia...

Haruman-mu membangkitkan semangat 'Kami cinta Malaysia'...

Mekar dan Wangi-mu kami amati, biarpun buat seketika waktu,

Ia tetap hidup dalam jiwa dan minda Rakyat Malaysia...

Air Mata Kasih,

Laungan Kebebasan,

Langkah Keberanian,

Senyuman Harapan,

Hati berat rasai Kelahiran Bangsa Bebas Malaysia...

Inilah yang mampu kami taburkan,

Mekarlah... the "Unsung Bunga Raya Kuning"

YELLOW~~~ 9th July 2011

2011-07-04T15:22:00.003+08:00

Ha!

that's the thing, mates...

but today, i read the news about people getting arrested, just because they are wearing YELLOW t-shirts... joker la dudes... oh well, t-shirt with "Bersih 2.0" wordings??

the best part is, they were having their breakfast when the police came and caught them, 70 policemen!! such celebrity-level arrest! man!

hmm... what a hysteria!

That's my King... Do you know Him?

2011-06-17T13:23:00.006+08:00

The Bible says... my King is the King of the Jews.

He's the King of Israel.

He's the King of righteousness.

He's the King of the ages.

He's the King of Heaven.

He's the King of glory.

He's the King of kings, and He's the Lord of lords.

That's my King. I wonder...Do you know Him?

My King is a sovereign King.

No means of measure can define his limitless love.

He's enduringly strong.

He's entirely sincere.

He's eternally steadfast.

He's immortally graceful.

He's imperially powerful.

He's impartially merciful... Do you know Him?

He's the greatest phenomenon that has ever crossed the horizon of this world.

He's God's Son.

He's the sinner's Savior.

He's the peak of civilization.

He's unparalleled.

He's unprecedented.

He is the loftiest idea in literature.

He's the highest personality in philosophy.

He's the fundamental doctrine of true theology.

He's the only one qualified to be an all-sufficient Savior.

I wonder if you know Him today.

He supplies strength for the weak.

He's available for the tempted and the tried.

He sympathizes and He saves.

He strengthens and sustains.

He guards and He guides.

He heals the sick.

He cleanses the lepers.

He forgives sinners.

He discharges debtors.

He delivers the captives.

He defends the feeble.

He blesses the young.

He serves the unfortunate.

He regards the aged.

He rewards the diligent, and He beautifies the meager.

I wonder if you know Him.

He's the key to knowledge.

He's the wellspring of wisdom.

He's the doorway of deliverance.

He's the pathway of peace.

He's the roadway of righteousness.

He's the highway of holiness.

He's the gateway of glory. Do you know Him?

Well, His light is matchless.

His goodness is limitless.

His mercy is everlasting.

His love never changes.

His word is enough.

His grace is sufficient.

His reign is righteous, and His yoke is easy and His burden is light.

I wish I could describe Him to you.

Yes, He's indescribable.

He's incomprehensible.

He's invincible.

He's irresistible.

You can't get Him out of your mind.

You can't get Him off of your head.

You can't outlive Him, and you can't live without Him.

Well, the Pharisees couldn't stand Him but they found out they couldn't stop Him.

Pilate couldn't find any fault in Him.

Herod couldn't kill Him.

Death couldn't handle Him, and the grave couldn't hold Him.

I wonder if you know Him...

--- Rev S.M. Lockridge ---

A Call to Anguish --- David Wilkerson

2011-06-15T09:26:00.001+08:00

‎"I don't wanna hear prophesies... I don't wanna hear revivals... I don't wanna hear miracles... I don't wanna hear those things anymore... BUT WEEP NOW..."

Who are willing to weep to death over things which CHRISTIANS seems to concern about? ... ... ... STOP the talks... BUT WEEP NOW...

When my journey's over... I'm going Home~~~

2011-04-28T15:43:00.002+08:00

HOME - The Gaithers

Home is where the heart is my heart's own home

Though I never really had one to call my own

I've been given a key by the Carpenter of Galilee

With interest paid the title's made to me

Home where there is no night

Home where the Son is the light

The place I've been dreaming of so long

Loved ones there to welcome me

But His sweet face will be the first I see

When my journey's over I am going home

Everybody dreams of going home it seems

Lately I am no exception to the rule

But home is so much more than windows walls and doors

It's a warm embrace and smiling faces awaiting you

Home where there is no night

Home where the Son is the light

The place I've been dreaming of so long

Loved ones there to welcome me

But His sweet face will be the first I see

When my journey's over I am going home

Home where there is no night

Home where the Son is the light

The place I've been dreaming of so long

Loved ones there to welcome me

But His sweet face will be the first I see

When my journey's over I am going home

And when my journey's over I am going home

Blind Faith??

2011-04-13T09:33:00.002+08:00

"how do you know what you believe is the truth?"

that is to all Christians, the follower of Christ Jesus... the One, the most debated and controversial historical figure in the human world.

many say, "I am Christian"

many say, "I believe in Jesus Christ... I believe God..."

many also say, "I believe the Word of God"

BUT, how many truly dig deep into the very foundation of their faith and belief?

when confronted, many are dumbfounded...

with questions and accusations aimed at their faith...

with so called conflicts and contradictions in the book they believe is the truth, which is the Truth from God...

with critical, sound-so-true and believable and seems-convincing-mind-boggling arguments...

"SO... you believe it just like that?"

"yeah... i just know it in my heart..."

the time is closing up...

much more hardships ahead...

much more seemingly invisible and unawarely false teachings ahead, with compromises and twisted truth...

much more stubbornness and "always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth" ahead...

ARE WE (the so called Christians) GONNA STOP JUST WHERE WE WERE IN THE PAST?

ARE WE (the so called followers of Christ) GONNA SATISFIED JUST WITH WHAT WE DO (outward holiness) AND MOVE ALONG WITH THE MOTION?

HOW MUCH LONGER ARE WE (the people entrusted with The Truth) GONNA IGNORE THE VERY BOOK WE CALL BIBLE (which we believe is the Word of God)?

HOW MUCH LONGER ARE WE (the messenger of The Gospel, Christ's ambassadors) GONNA LET OURSELVES BE PARALYSED AND NUMBED TO "GO"?

Acts 17:11-12

[ Now the Bereans were the more noble character than the Thessalonians, for they received the message with great eagerness and examined the Scriptures every day to see if what Paul said was true. Many of the Jews believed, as did also a number of prominent Greek women and many Greek men. ]

Kisah Para Rasul 17:11-12

[ Orang-orang Yahudi di kota itu lebih baik hatinya dari pada orang-orang Yahudi di Tesalonika, karena mereka menerima firman itu dengan segala kerelaan hati dan setiap hari mereka menyelidiki Kitab Suci untuk mengetahui, apakah semuanya itu benar demikian. Banyak di antara mereka yang menjadi percaya; juga tidak sedikit di antara perempuan-perempuan terkemuka dan laki-laki Yunani. ]

as there is one saying which goes like this,

the Old Testament is the truth hidden,

the New Testament is the truth revealed / unveiled.

The Truth... dig deep into the Word and find the hidden jewels you will never want to let go of them because they speak right into your heart and spirit and soul that your mind is transformed.

"Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth." (John 4:23-24)

"Tetapi saatnya akan datang dan sudah tiba sekarang, bahwa penyembah-penyembah benar akan menyembah Bapa dalam roh dan kebenaran; sebab Bapa menghendaki penyembah-penyembah demikian. Allah itu Roh dan barangsiapa menyembah Dia, harus menyembah-Nya dalam roh dan kebenaran." (Yohanes 4:23-24)

The Truth...

"You Samaritans worship what you do not know; we worship what we do know..." (John 4:22)

"Kamu menyembah apa ayng tidak kamu kenal, kami menyembah apa yang kami kenal,..." (Yohanes 4:22)

Now, we worship what we do know... BUT, HOW MUCH DO WE KNOW GOD WHOM WE WORSHIP AND THE ONE WHOM WE CALL 'LORD, LORD'?

my fellow friends, brothers and sisters, warriors of truth and faith,

if we do not acquaint ourselves with the One whom we worship by means of Scripture study, and overall a life of worship, in truth and spirit, nobody else can really help you in achieving that personal knowledge, intimate relationship with the One we chose to believe and worship...

"the truth will set you free..."

that's when you've found your precious jewel in the Scripture, in His Word...

are we not longing to have a life of peace, rest and freedom from excess worries, tiresome and uncertainties?

are we not tired of just doing the work and responsibilities by just doing it for the sake of doing it?

IT IS NOT A BLIND FAITH

we certainly do not want to believe blindly, do we?

we accept by faith AND we soak ourselves into His Word too, for He is the source of living water, very much needed for our growth in relationship with Him, the One and Only True God and Jesus Christ whom He has sent.

GRIP on...

HANG on...

HOPE on...

to the very TRUTH we have, truth revealed in Christ Jesus who is "the Way, the Truth and the Life" because no one can go to the Father except through Him... amen.

by the way...

2011-04-13T09:29:00.002+08:00

ICM office has officially shifted to Solaris Dutamas... on 28th March 2011...

"How much are you willing to be hated?"

2011-04-13T09:10:00.004+08:00

“We are in an interesting battle, whether we realise it or not, in this world. It’s a battle between life and death. What side are you on?”

“I know, along my journey, I am already hated because I declare life!”

“How much are you willing to take, and how much are you willing to risk, to speak the truth in love and graciousness, and stand up and, at least, be willing to be hated?”

“There was not a radical feminist, standing up and yelling about how my rights had been violated that day. In fact my life was being snuffed out in the name of womens rights.”

“There are things that you are only able to learn by the weakest among us. And when you snuff them out you are the one that looses. The Lord looks after them but you are the one who will suffer for ever.”

“And what arrogance, what absolute arrogance, and it has been an arguement for so long in this human place that we live, that the stronger should dominate the weaker, should determine who lives and dies. The arrogance of that! Don’t you realise that you cannot make your own heart beat. Don’t you realise that all the power that you think that you possess you really possess none of it. It is the mercy of God that sustains you, even when you hate Him.”

“We misunderstand how beautiful suffering can be. I don’t willingly sign up for it, but when it comes, we forget that God is in control and God has a way of making the most miserable thing beautiful.”

“Men, you are made for greatness. You are made to stand up and be men. You are made to defend women and children, not stand by, and turn your head, when you know murder is occurring and do nothing about it. You are not made to use women and leave us alone. You are made to be kind and great and gracious and strong and stand for something because men, listen to me, I am too tired to do your job.”

“Women, you are not made for abuse. You are not made to sit and not know your worth and your value. You are made to be fought for, forever.”

“So now is your moment, what sort of people are you going to be? I trust, incredible. I trust, men, you will rise to the occassion. To the politians listening, particularly to the men, I would say this, you are made for greatness, set your politics aside. You are made to defend what is right and good, this fiery young girl will stand here and say, now it your moment. What sort of man do you want to be? A man obsessed with your own glory or a man obsessed with the glory of God? It’s time to take a stand, Victoria. This is your hour. God will assist you. God will be with you. You have the opportunity to glorify and honour God in 2008.”

“Some of you might be slightly annoyed that all I keep doing is talking about God and Jesus but how on earth can I walk about, limping through this world and not give ALL my heart and mind and soul and strength to the Christ who gave me life! So if you think I am a fool, it’s just another jewel in my crown. My whole intent in living here is to make God smile.”

FREE SARAWAK radio

2011-03-11T16:35:00.001+08:00

Radio Free Sarawak is the independent radio station that brings you the news you want to hear, not what others want you to hear. No one controls us, except you, the listeners of Sarawak .

So tune in and enjoy the news, interviews, reports and comment that you will never get to hear on any of the other government-controlled radio stations in Sarawak. There will be plenty of our best music too, all presented to you in Iban by Papa Orang Utan, our own man from the jungle of Sarawak!

This is specially for people of Sarawak...

Sarawak...

2011-03-11T14:46:00.002+08:00

today is March 11th (Friday)...

i wanna say, i wanted to go back Sarawak...

perhaps, two more years here in Semenanjung, then i'll go back...

though earlier on, i actually wanted to be a little irrational, i mean, just work till end of this year, and go back to East Malaysia... sebab hati keberatan mau berada jauh daripada keluarga, apatah lagi semasa Chinese New Year, menangis on the day pergi airport... macam it's the first time rasa so berat hati mau terbang pergi KL... huhu~~~

;(

but after calming myself, and think about it, 'alright, it is too rash to decide just like that...', should stay for at least 3 years just like i decided to when i took up this work

ok...

i like this video...

2010-12-15T17:17:00.002+08:00

Selepas Tsunami (After the Tsunami) from Pusat KOMAS on Vimeo.

somehow, i feel like it's a season of awakening through the explosion of information & communication technology, an element which was promoted by the government since 90s perhaps??

this kind of information, videos, reports, commentaries, investigations were not made known those days, but now emerging through world wide web and many social networking applications, reaching to more and more people...

yes, somehow i find it hard to straight buy into all stuffs channeled because it came out of nowhere, well at least to me, and it's about politics, the game of orang-orang besar here... yet, there is no smoke without fire right? and i do think that it is sooner or later that the "turning point" of Malaysia is about to happen...

i have been disconnected from my nation all this while, it's no more room for self but to care more about others... it's time to think and act on the course of owning this nation...

let myself to be educated and share what i've received to others

now... a song recommended by me :)

2010-12-08T15:38:00.007+08:00

We'll walk the land (streets) with hearts of fire
And every step will be a prayer
Hope is rising, new day dawning
The sound of singing fills the air

Two thousand years and still the flame
Is burning bright across the land
Hearts are waiting, longing, aching
For awakening once again

Let the flame burn brighter in the heart of the darkness
Turning night to glorious day
Let the song grow louder as our love grows stronger
Let it shine
Let it shine

We'll walk the truth, speak out the love
In Jesus' name we shall be strong
To lift the fallen, to save the children
To flood the nation with Your song

Let the flame burn brighter in the heart of the darkness
Turning night to glorious day
Let the song grow louder as our love grows stronger
Let it shine
Let it shine
(repeats)

it was sung at the closing of National Conference 2010 "Risk It U Turn" on Saturday... very semangat, like a soldier...

the worst national song ever! (sorry to say but it's true)

2010-12-08T15:28:00.002+08:00

everyone! have you ever heard the song about Malaysia's Bunga Raya this year???
it was made for Tahun Jubilee Bunga Kebangsaan Malaysia (something like that)... guess what it is being played in rapidKL buses!!! over and over and over till it stuck in your head!

ARRGHHH~~~!

it is ANNOYING... to the max! the whole song is not patriotic and it is like composed by a non musician, simply throw in the musical notes, just to give a tune to the lyrics... sorry to say, but it's 'yucksss' for me to listen to it...

tune is out, lyric is 'blah', the video is 'so so, typical RTM videos'... guess they run out of ideas???

unlike 'Sejahtera Malaysia' and 'KeranaMu Malaysia' etc...

Risk It... U-Turn...

2010-12-06T15:19:00.002+08:00

National Conference 2010, organized by Fellowship of Evangelical Students (FES) at Bayu Resort Port Dickson, from 29nov till 4dec was a blast! BOOOMMM!

why??

AMAZING PEOPLE...

WONDERFUL STORIES...

YOU'LL-NEVER-GO-HUNGRY MEALS...

ELECTRIFYING SPEECHES...

AWESOME GOD!!!

i guess i will need a day or two to write for my journal!!! from the first day till the last moment there!

God of second chances...
God who revives...
God who look pass handicaps and lead the person to eternal destiny...

God of silence yet full of energy and strong presence...
God who is faithful even though we failed many times!!!

God... the BIGGEST RISK TAKER!

this generation of young people, called to be the voice of the LORD in this nation, against the current world full of racism, injustice, compromise, degraded morale...
becoming the prophets, to profess God's standards to restore and reconcile relationships, between men and between men to God...

the Benjamin Generation...

we went through the second letter of Apostle Paul to Timothy... we looked at the prophet Ezekiel... the prophet Jeremiah... we look at GOD'S HEART for this nation, this generation...

i sense the time is soon... the one which i dreamed of 2 or 3 years ago...
though it might not be drastic and dramatic... hmm... perhaps it might be...!

ok... SELAH, a moment of pause...

fuuh~~~ too many things to write that it's all over the place... i do need a day to write them!

Tega tawai, TUHAN...

setelah sekian lama...

2010-10-29T11:50:00.002+08:00

after a looooooonng time... my gosh! it's like i've abandon my writings, both blog (though initially, i meant it for fun and small sharings only) and MY JOURNAL!!!

oh my... too much... too many things happened since my last post in my journal...
this year's journal notes started with a few sentences, recording some experiences... and that's all, not even truly write down what i wanted to write, you know, what's in my mind, what's in store...

ok... i need a mountain to climb for solitary time...

reflection...

recalling...

remembering...

reassurance...

searching...

and falling in love again... and again... and again...

kenangan...

2010-09-09T13:51:00.003+08:00

today... looking at the kindergarten picture on FB, suddenly i thought of my cousin when he was still alive...

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perhaps i miss him... even though we didnt really spend much time together, especially after he moved out from our house during secondary school, i remember the times when we were still young, and such a kiddo...

there was a time when we competed with each other to be the first to wake up and made ready for school, primary school... finished writing vocabulary even before teacher asked us to...

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it has been two years since the last time i saw him, before he was gone...

i still cannot make up my mind that he is actually gone! as if he was still somewhere outside...

the biggest shock is, he passed away before his brother did (who was in the hospital due to suspected drug overdose in KL) ! when he went back Sarawak that time, he was just fine! we thought his brother would go first, never expect he died in Sibu Hospital...

DOUBLE shock for us!

even though we are not so so close...

BUT i miss them, especially the younger one of them, same age with me and grew up together...

untitled...

2010-08-30T14:41:00.002+08:00

today is 30th of August 2010...
it's Monday...

tomorrow is holiday, Hari Merdeka...
but not all will be on holiday, still need to work...

hmm... September... October... November... December...
and we will have Year 2011...

time flies?

WAO~~~!

2010-07-22T10:34:00.000+08:00

mata pun membesar... telinga lagi berjaga-jaga...

2010-07-19T16:05:00.004+08:00

WALAO!!!

something happened while i was in the rapidKL u40 to KL this morning! and it happened next to my seat!

there the bus was getting filled up along the journey, and there was a man with a bag sitting next to me, seemed like it was the last empty seat available...

orite, now, the bus reached batu 9 (if not mistaken, too many batu(s) around, dunno where and when i'm at which batu... hmm... so whatever, batu 9 la). there was an old man (around 45-55 years old, gendut, perut buncit, rambut pendek seperti botak, and the baju macam ada sejenis bau) squeezing from front to the back and sat on the platform in between the back seats.

and i am sure that the guy and the old man didn't know each other.

just, out of nowhere, i sensed something was going on besides me! the old man's hand was on the guy's lap! he was talking once a while to him, while patting and rubbing that guy's lap!

"what is that??!' i was thinking, continue to observe...

then, his hand was like moving closer and closer to that part, and he touched it! yet, that guy macam tak kisah saja!!!

i heard the old man said, '... besar oh... sangat besar...'
GOSH!!! WHAT THE HECK is he doing there??!

once a while that guy lean forward and the old man whispered things to him.

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hmm... itu la ceritanya... i guess sama-sama mau kot... kalau tidak, pasti that guy menolak la, rather than biar saja dia meraba sana sini, menepuk dan akhirnya sentuh 'duud'...

i remember one night, not long before that happening, he was in the same bus with me! and i was sitting next to him! GOSH... good thing he didnt meraba-raba me!

but...

he did asked me, 'adik, pi mane?... kajang ke?'

WAH~~~!!!

mengeracau...

2010-06-02T16:48:00.002+08:00

is it just me or suddenly a lot of people are against Israel?

it's like people going crazy... cut here and there, march here and there, shout here and there, benci here and there, kawad kiri kanan kiri...

oh, Israel... a small nation... and it's like the whole world is going to swallow you up...

but the amazing and wonderful thing is... Israel is not going to vanish... some mysteries people just couldn't understand...

Psalms 119:129-136

2010-06-01T15:20:00.002+08:00

Psalms 119:129-136 (The Message)

Every word you give me is a miracle word—
how could I help but obey?

Break open your words, let the light shine out,
let ordinary people see the meaning.

Mouth open and panting,
I wanted your commands more than anything.

Turn my way, look kindly on me,
as you always do to those who personally love you.

Steady my steps with your Word of promise
so nothing malign gets the better of me.

Rescue me from the grip of bad men and women
so I can live life your way.

Smile on me, your servant;
teach me the right way to live.

I cry rivers of tears
because nobody's living by your book!

here is another version of the verses...

Psalms 119:129-136 (Amplified Bible)

¹²⁹Your testimonies are wonderful [far exceeding anything conceived by man]; therefore my [penitent] self keeps them [hearing, receiving, loving, and obeying them].

¹³⁰The entrance and unfolding of Your words give light; their unfolding gives understanding (discernment and comprehension) to the simple.

¹³¹I opened my mouth and panted [with eager desire], for I longed for Your commandments.

¹³²Look upon me, be merciful unto me, and show me favor, as is Your way to those who love Your name.

¹³³Establish my steps and direct them by [means of] Your word; let not any iniquity have dominion over me.

¹³⁴Deliver me from the oppression of man; so will I keep Your precepts [hearing, receiving, loving, and obeying them].

¹³⁵Make Your face shine [with pleasure] upon Your servant, and teach me Your statutes.

¹³⁶Streams of water run down my eyes, because men do not keep Your law [they hear it not, nor receive it, love it, or obey it].

Psalms 119 is very, how to say, good la... really lack of words...
read it out last Sunday evening... hmm, the longest chapter in the Bible eh...

there are many kept me thinking and 'menikmati ayat-ayatnya'... wonderful...
then Psalms 119:130 is the one i keep thinking till now...

unfolding of His Words... gives light... gives understanding to the simple... so called the rhema word... transforming our thoughts, thinking patterns, renewing & restoring our mind from the 'lies' we consciously & unconsciously absorb throughout the life, the lies of the world...
what a joy to know the One God, His Words give the excitement and wonders in heart of the listeners...

hey mates, there's only one Truth here, get on hold of it tightly, never lose it!
He said "I am the Truth, the Way and the Life..."

you know, He=Yeshua haMesshiach

Abbah, God of the universe
watching all things happening under the sky, among the people
all things happen with Your divine permission, according to Your will...
everything and everyone is moving around You, as the centre. it's all about You...
Faithful God, keeping Your promises even till today, You never fail... even though our mind cannot fathom Your ways, we wanna trust in Your will...

who are we to complain about what people call bad lucks, accidents, woes... often we want good things, 'good lucks' from You, why not we also accept the 'bad things' from You, with contentment?
we sigh upon looking at those news, happenings around us... murders, rapes, corruptions, frauds, deaths, disasters, climate changes... politics...? injustice...? foolishness...?...homosexuality... ah... too much... sigh~~

the world is corrupted... worse and worse... seems like there is no HOPE everywhere, no TRUTH can be found... nowhere is safe so it seems! many got drifted by the current of the world, overlooked the lifeline which has been thrown down to them from above the heavens...
"we cannot do a thing to change... it's like that... what to do... i know, don't talk about these anymore... shhhhh..."

Your Kingdom is near, the everlasting Kingdom of Yours...
and it's time now for people to be awaken from deep sleep, eyes be opened to see, ears to hear the Truth. a new heart to understand...
"TODAY, if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion..."
Help us, LORD to speak forth for You... for we know much of our own words are not matched with Your one true Word, because You know everyone the best. everyone created in You, through You, for You...

give us the understanding to read Your Words, that we may grow stronger each day, renewed every morning... that there's a joy and peace surpasses our own understanding, even in the storms of life... for we know better and better who You are, how tender and sweet You are, how strict and just You are... everything is about You... oh, Your Words i crave in the deepest of my being...

Your Words is LIFE! the light i need! the slumber of assurance, the confidence to live...

God of Mercy, Loving Abbah, Wonderful Jesus, Gentle Spirit... :) unfolding Your Words so that many lives see the light... so that the simple understands... life will never be the same again! let the knowledge of the LORD flood the earth...

honour and glory is to You. the authority is Yours. Your Kingdom is forever.
thank You for the gift You give
thank You for being faithful
thank You for the Truth you unveiled
thank You...

in Yeshua's super duper name, we pray, amen...

food for thought...

2010-06-01T15:13:00.002+08:00

1 Timothy 6:3-10 (NIV)

³If anyone teaches false doctrines and does not agree to the sound instruction of our Lord Jesus Christ and to godly teaching, ⁴he is conceited and understands nothing. He has an unhealthy interest in controversies and quarrels about words that result in envy, strife, malicious talk, evil suspicions ⁵and constant friction between men of corrupt mind, who have been robbed of the truth and who think that godliness is a means to financial gain.

⁶But godliness with contentment is great gain.

⁷For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it.

⁸But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that.

⁹People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction.

¹⁰For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.

stories continue... RapidKL u40...

2010-05-20T12:01:00.003+08:00

oh well... there are a lot of stories to tell and it's fun to watch the people around!
a lot of 'kerenah' and 'gelagat'... the facial expressions, the talks, the body languages etc...

and, yea it takes averagely 3 hours for me to travel back and forth Kajang-KL every weekday.
many of the times, i sleep... if im awake, woohoo... interesting things can be observed!

i ah, actually have some of the things i wanted to post up here a few months ago, but tak jadi, malas la, like too many things... like usual, don't know where to start... hmm...

orite, i met 'orang gila' in the bus before, 'orang mabuk', 'couple tak senang hati', 'couple jiwang', 'orang muntah', 'orang tidur' ... eheheh... many kinds... FUN! i'm 'orang tidur', until the bus stopped at the terminal and the driver called me, i was like 'gosh! sleep like bab1, dah sampai pun tak sedar!...'

there was one time, i got on the bus, then a guy sat a row in front of me. after that, came a man sitting across that guy's seat. that man took out his phone, called "hallo... hallo... bla bla bla", hung up. he then talking to himself, with his hand gestures...

the earlier guy looked at him with 'what is dat man doing??!~~~ orang gila ka nih?' face... and i was looking at them too. that guy then turned to me with his face and i smiled back at him, amused with them.

next, came a big guy sitting besides me, took out his gadgets, busy playing games, tilting his phone side to side, up and down... not long after that the bus was nearly filled.

during stops, more people coming in, until one lady (quite short, quite gempal) squeezed in from front to the back, just to sit in between the back seats which is 'seatless', knowing that nobody would sacrifice his/her precious butts to sit on the 'dirty' platform. so she comfortably sit there, "ah, good seat... no need to stand... yesh~~~"

the bus was crowded... oh yea, i remembered, that night was a special night for Indians, because i saw those Indians wearing their best around KL area as well as those in the bus, but i don't know what was it...

and... there was a 'girl', i say a 'girl' la, can't really judge her age from her look, but from the way she dresses, 20-30 years old punya la... magically, she sat next to the 'presumably gila' man. wow~~~

as the bus moved along, not long after that, that girl searched something in her bag. TADAA~~~ a NAIL CLIPPER!... so she clipped and clipped and clipped her finger nails while the bus swaying side to side... 'click.... click... fuuuh~~~' there she goes...

the big guy sitting next to me (also next to that 'seatless' lady), suddenly 'hmmpphhh~~~' (breathing out throught his nostril like melepaskan angin ribut taufan, well at least to that lady...) and the lady quickly 'terase' angin ribut taufan hit her left shoulder and face, i suppose, that she turned her head to 'jeling' her 'WOI! your nafas don't blow here ah! i'm clean ok, fatty' eyes... then she 'swept' her shoulder and made the 'displeasing' sound, 'TSSSK!', sengaja for him to notice

but, too bad, he was too into the game, he didn't notice. he was wearing earphones too! ahahah...
then, for the second time, the lady, same reaction but this time, her composure changed, really like tak puas hati, sit also like tauke or gangster 'u... wanna fight ah? huh! i'm the big boss here, know!' style... taking out a 'minyak angin' from her bag, vigorously and 'kejam'ly sapu the 'minyak cap kapak' onto her 'lobang hidung' and 'kawasan-kawasan yang sewaktu dengannya'...

the big guy still on his game... quietly tilting the phone...

another scene, one Indian man standing next to his friend's seat. it was very crowded. but there was another man/lady (forgot already) squeezed in between that Indian man and the other unknown human being. so rase tak senang, the Indian man showed his 'i tak senang ur body sapu'ing my body like dat, u know...' look, and he kinda like complained to his friend in Tamil, i think it's Tamil la...

ok, that's about all in one trip!

humans... ahhh~~~ very interesting creatures! they are very amusing! it's true many who we don't feel like 'loving' them, thinking 'how to love that fella??! ... not worth my love...', 'hey, i don't like you, look at your face also i tak suke...'

haih... SIGH~~~... thinking so superior than other people... oh my, corrupted relationships! many are looking for relationships which are genuine, comfortable, reliable, trustworthy, with LOVE, some wants 'i feel good', 'what can i gain from this?' kind of relationships...

LOVE in Hebrew, 'ahava', consists of two words, 'I' and 'give'. Love means 'I give...', not 'you give me, so i feel better, i feel loved, i feel important, i feel worthy, and i deserve it bla bla bla - it's all about ME'!

God is LOVE... that's what the Scriptures tell us, that's what the people say, that's what we hear... 'we ought to love... not hate...', 'we have to love... even our enemies', talking about love this and love that, showing love to him, her, to the world, yada yada yada... but how far do we understand the LOVE?

how deep?
how high?
how long?
how wide?

the most precious of God, He gave to us, to redeem the relationships, God to the people, people to people... the Gift He gave, Jesus Christ, 'dabao' with forgiveness, healing, freedom, wealth, deliverance, joy, health, peace, mercy, salvation, life... it's a gift... G.. I.. F.. T.. no string attached..
that is how God loves, He gives... like a father gives the best to his children, what more to God!

unlike humans, God doesn't measure or judge first our deeds, our thoughts, our words, our self before He wants to accept and love us??! NO...

Thank God! Praise God, oh my soul for you have found such a Person, rather, you have been found by that Wonderful Person... He isn't far high above the sky in the universe, He is close to you heart, waiting to have fellowship with you in your private room, no matter how messy your room is! ... Thank You... Jesus... the promised Saviour of God...

I will run to the hiding place
...
I will run to the hiding place
...
Draw me ever closer to look upon Your face
...
I will run to the hiding place
...

You are my hiding place
my comfort, my refuge, my rest, my shield, my joy, my strength

what a wonderful Sunday...

2010-05-10T09:59:00.002+08:00

yesterday, we went to Zoe Christian Fellowship for ICM work! ahahha, yea 'working' on weekend.

the highlight was during my way back to Kajang...
woohoo! got on the bus (Pasar Seni LRT station) around 2.30pm! (we left the church at about 1.45pm...)

here's a story, last 2 weeks, we had the same work at different church. about the same time we left and reached KL central, BUT since i was there, i decided to take the commuter back to Kajang, a silly thought! dat time, it was about 2.30pm i think... after getting down to the platform, how regretted i was, it was packed with people! twice the trains were sardine-packed, i gave up to squeeze in until the third one came and i got on. it was 4.30pm!

and so, this time wanted to be smart, i took the LRT to Pasar Seni, "I dont wanna take KTM... better take RapidKL u40 back to Kajang, faster and no nid to main rugby with people..."

fuuh~~~ everything was good! a few people only in the bus, and it was comfortable, with cool chilling air-con... was sitting at the back seat... took out my jacket and wore it, ready to sleep...

ah~~~ cool... the traffic was kinda jammed... but it's fine with me...

then in my sleep, someone knocked on the window screen next to me. i noticed everyone's gone! RAPTURE! nah~~~ they wanna switch bus... weird... and i was the last person to get down, because i was sleeping! woohoo!

"why didnt the people at least wake me up before getting down ler?? walao... sampai me selesa tidur thr until RapidKL guy knocked the window screen..."

ok, so i got on, this bus, a lot of people already... many were standing... "oh no, no more seat, cannot sleep already!... aiya..." BLING~~~ i saw a seat right behind! fuuh~~~ "YESSS!!! sleep!"

we were at Cheras batu9. and we moved on...

along the way, i saw one RapidKL stopped by the roadside.. "eh, what happened today ah? why RapidKL bus like this punya, mogok ka? engine got problem ah? apahal nih?"

then, another one!... "this is weird! 3 buses 'not in operation'... what is dis?"

orite... came the exciting part, when a car, more like a MPV, came next to the bus, on a small lane... i dont know who was at fault la, in this matter...

then the car like hampir kena langgar (kena kepit) by the bus, so it slowed down and the bus driver noticed dat too... the car advanced forward up to the bus driver and then the car went to in front and somehow like slowed down his car, it was like wanna pick up fight, you know, like wanna challenge with the bus la...

out of a sudden, it stopped! the bus stopped too... people inside terkejut, 'wooo~~~', 'oii~~~', 'waa~~~'... dats wat i heard fr them la...

the car driver came out, called the bus driver to come out to 'talk'... and the bus driver got down!
they talked, talked, and talked... i heard the bus kena slammed, again the passengers 'oi.. oi.. oik~~~!', 'apa nih~~~!...' all sorts of sounds, many stood up, moved to the front to watch... there was a lady shouted quite loud, it was making the whole scene 'big' la... so 'fun'... eheheh...

not until long, some motorcyclists, cars stopped by to watch the real-life drama... many in the bus with confused, 'what is this man~~ den smile and chuckle' face... talked with each other... whose fault is this, discussing with hand gestures like, u know the hip hop dancers or wateverr dancers they move their hands up & down, slide & tick, sway & fold, den like octopus hands fling here & thr... u know rite... dats how they did in trying to explain the car and the bus...

tiba-tiba, the guy punched the bus driver... he fell, and the guy kicked him some more... and the people just 'cheer leading' there, only after a while some came to their senses and ran to stop the fight... wa~~~ that guy in singlet really like mad man!!! can really sense the rage, the hatred, the 'hati tak senang', the 'api', the 'macho wanna punch u till death & i feel happily ever after' exuding from the scene... walao!

well, i didnt get to see the whole 'drama'... u know wat... i was still sitting thr, looking at the people... and the guy sitting next to me, he got up and went to the front, i think he wanted to shout 'cut' to the scene, i think only la, so taking this opportunity, i switched my seat with him... so i got to sit by the window! how cunning i am! gosh~~~

'who will be the peacemaker?' i thought to myself... looking at myself, and the people around, 'sigh~~~'

the end...

Busy... Busy... Busy...

2010-04-01T10:35:00.000+08:00

really???

by Kathryn Kuhlman...

2010-03-15T15:45:00.002+08:00

... One day, I looked up and said...

"Wonderful Jesus, I have nothing I can give You but my love. ... That's all that I can give You...

I offer my body as the living sacrifice... And if You can take nothing and use it, then use nothing... take it..."

It is not the silver vessel that He's asking for, it is not the golden vessel that He needs... He just needs yielded vessel...

Daddy... Papa... Abba... a Father's Heart

2010-03-05T15:27:00.002+08:00

... ... ...

revelation of God the Father's Heart

... ... ...

5 C's

2010-02-25T10:50:00.002+08:00

the popular 5 C's...

- Cash
- Car
- Credit Card
- Condominium
- Country Club (membership)

"... It arose as a popular joke based on certain truths attesting to the unstated Singaporean cultural ethos of materialistic obsession and aspiration to achieve these things in order to impress others, both socially, economically and sociologically." [Wikipedia]

well, today in the ICM office, don't know how we get to this 5 C's topic... oh, i remembered, we talked about getting married, and people nowadays somehow are looking for this 5 C as the criteria for their perfect match, bla bla bla... (coz i'm the only 'bachelor' thr -.-''', sengaja tu)

then, sampat here and there... so keluar la hikmat... the wisdom among the trashy jokes:

"we need one C, enough already... Christ Jesus... having C + Grace, we have all the richness and abundance..."

so, one C above all the other C's... Christ Jesus...

ok, Good day!

just wanna say it

2010-02-12T15:14:00.004+08:00

oh, i left something out, which i was thinking of putting in the previous post :)

ermm... to all who know me, heard of me, seen me before... i hereby wanna apologize for any annoyance, frustration, anger, dissatisfaction, vexation and any other kind of displeasing feelings which i might have bring upon you...

alright, so we're good?

oh, there's one more thing. likewise, i accept your apology in return ;)

and, we're doubly good now? erhem... teehee

God bless!

"... ... ... ... ..."

2010-02-12T11:59:00.005+08:00

looking at my past posts here... hmm, especially those few which sounded 'taboo?' or 'inappropriate', yea, sorry la ye, just trying to be expressive in a way that they project my current state of mind and emotion at that moment... eheheheh, oh well...

seemingly contradicting to being a 'good guy who is a Christian' which people imprinted in mind that 'a religious man shouldn't be like this or that... a Christian man is supposed to be like this or that, like super duper HOLY and like a god~~~, everything he does is goodness in people's eyes'.

SO~~~ if that man expresses a little of his feelings and thoughts towards certain issues, well, in a negative way (blurting out taboos in disguise - i guess it's speaking without any thinking or filtering with the brain, gosh, how silly)... what about it?

it's frustration...

he is a human too, who do wrongs sometimes as well, like you and me. learning from the mistakes and being transformed little by little everyday. i would prefer him to be open and not a fake, trying to hide the 'crumbling, rolling, gushing, melting etc' that happening on the inside.

are we to start distant ourselves from people like that man? rejecting him all at once? gosh, learning to embrace many kinds of people is truly a seemingly impossible mission. EMBRACE and TOLERATE...

of course, don't get me wrong, that doesn't give us the pass to do whatever we feel like doing or saying, right...

so, we ought to have the so-called 'self control' in our actions, words so that people around us who are watching and observing us don't get 'stumbled' on the very specific word or act or thought (which we often think doesn't really mean anything or having a HUGE impact, 'come on, it's just mere dust that can be easily be blown away from your skin...') from us.

in this sense, we have the power to build people up as well as the power to corrupt them!

... 'sigh' ...

things like...

- is it wrong for a CHRISTIAN (or anyone else) to gamble?

- is it ok for us to watch porn?

- is it fine to have our palm read or thumb prints analyzed... horoscope?

- and many other things which seem like blocking my mind now

(-.-''')

saying, "it's just a form of entertainment la..."

sound like compromise?? an intention to compromise with the truth or heavenly advice?

people can talk their logic out concerning these and their logic and rationale do really make sense! so firm as they make themselves sound like that others don't know what else to say, ... dumb...

after all,

a heavy SIGH~~~...

(with a hard screaming of 'HELP~~~!' shouting from deep within the heart... groaning to make all the clouds clear)

sounds familiar?

2010-01-15T14:24:00.002+08:00

I have taken my stand.

Have you?!

... walao!...

2010-01-08T14:02:00.003+08:00

interesting post on MalaysiaKini

http://www1.malaysiakini.com/news/121232#

written by a Sabahan...

well, i am still wondering 'what is Malaysia'...

being here, West Malaysia for about 6 years... the more ugliness i see... the beauty of Malaysia is no longer real... Sad man...

yet, excited!

enjoy reading...

2010-01-08T12:40:00.001+08:00

(this isn't mine)

I grew up watching Petronas Hari Merdeka advertisements portraying little Ah Chong, little Abdullah and little Ramesh playing happily together as children, and 30 years later as old men these three multi-racial friends would still be able to sit together having coffee at the same table.

As a school student, I noticed that the National Textbooks would always portray multi-ethnicity in their contents, having characters like Siti, Kumasari and Mei Ling harmoniously interacting and co-existing with one another.

I grew up having that image of Malaysia in my head and my heart, and living in Sabah does not make it difficult to believe that this is indeed what Malaysia truly is.

It is not a strange scene for the multi-racial (we have over 40 different ethnic groups in Sabah) and multi-religion people (Muslims, Christians of different denominations, Buddhists, Hindus, Pagans etc) in Sabah to sit together having coffee and mee goreng at the same table all the time.

In the late 1990's, I set foot for the first time on the land of Semenanjung Malaysia to further my study at one of the local university. My Malay Semenanjung roommate greeted me, "Welcome to Malaysia!"

Thinking she must have mistakenly identified me as an International Exchange student (from Indonesia, maybe?) I laughed and told her that I was actually from Sabah. To that, she replied, "Yes, I know that! First time here? So what do you think of Malaysia?"

Throughout the years, I was being asked a lot of questions by my fellow Malay Semenanjung friends, among others:

"Is it true that Sabahans still live in the jungles?"

"Do you live on trees?"

"Do people in Sabah wear 'cawat' all the time?"

"So how was your first time on an airplane?"

And as for Ah Meng, Balakrishnan and Ahmad having coffee together at the same table, it was almost non-existent that at that time I thought I was in another country other than Malaysia. The Malaysia that I thought I knew.

Malays would never set foot on a Chinese restaurant. Once I was having a meal with some friends in one Chinese stall by the roadside. A Malay man who happened to pass by spit on the ground near our table. I thought about the beautiful Petronas advertisement, and felt betrayed.

In the university itself, Malays would mingle among the Malays, the Chinese among themselves, the Indians likewise. Always unsure which 'group' we should 'belong to', Sabahans (Muslims and non-Muslims) would always opt to mingle among ourselves, and of course with our fellow Sarawakians (Muslims and non-Muslims).

I could still remember the time when the University decided to implement its 'integration' policy, in which they decided that allocations of hostel rooms for students should not be based on races and religion anymore. A hostel room should be shared by students of different races and religions, to promote unity.

The university students rallied around the campus, protesting the 'new policy'. Sabahans and Sarawakians could only watch in amazement.

But that was about 10 years ago. With more and more Sabahans and Sarawakians working and studying in Semenanjung, things must be a lot different nowadays. Are they?

This recent squabble over the name of God in Malaysia shocked us Sabahans, not because of the possibility of non-Muslims being denied the right to use the word 'Allah' to worship God, but because after so many years, surprisingly, there are still a lot that our Malay Semenanjung brothers and sisters do not know about Sabah and Sarawak.

Along with the questions on whether we still live on trees (Yes, they still ask that!), in their protest over the use of the word 'Allah' among non-Muslims, we could hear these remarks being made:

"Kita sudah cukup bertoleransi dengan mereka, tapi mereka pula mahu pijak kepala kita".

"This is a propaganda to confuse Muslims and convert Muslims to Christianity".

"The fact that you and your family are still a devouted Christian living in Sabah is a proof as well as a testament that for years ever since Merdeka, you fella have been allowed to practice your religion freely".

"Jumlah mereka cuma 9%, tapi Santa Claus ada di mana-mana."

"Bantah 1Malaysia!!!"

Sabahans and Sarawakians are natives of the beautiful island of Borneo, we were proud to call ourselves Malaysians after this small island happily joined Tanah Melayu to form Malaysia in the 1960's.

As natives of Borneo, we share the same Indigenous title with our Orang Asli and Malay brothers and sisters in Semenanjung Malaysia. And as such, we hold every single right as Bumiputra, or 'sons of the soil' (heheh!) as some people like to call it.

Some Malaysians are now proudly proclaiming how much they have 'tolerated' us all these years.

Definition of tolerate (Essential English Dictionary):

tolerate ['tɑləreɪt /'tɒl-]

verb

1. put up with something or somebody unpleasant

2. recognize and respect (rights and beliefs of others)

We are Bumiputra Malaysians, not PTI (Pendatang Tanpa Izin) that anyone should feel the need to 'put up with' us (are we unpleasant?). Yes, we appreciate it that you recognize and respect our rights and beliefs, but doing so and still treat us like aliens in our own land makes us wonder whether we are 'second-class' citizens in your eyes.

We 'fella' practise our own religion freely not because we are 'allowed' to do so by any human organisations, but because we have the human right as God's creations to do so.

Bantah 1Malaysia? What is 1Malaysia? Even before 'Merdeka', Sabahan and Sarawakian Muslims and non-Muslims have always been able to live together harmoniously and peacefully, despite our differences.

Most of our Muslim brothers and sisters in Sabah and Sarawak have no problems sitting together having coffee with their non-Muslim friends at the same table not because they 'tolerate' us.

It is because they embrace us.

Our Muslim brothers and sisters in Sabah and Sarawak are aware of the existence of the word 'Allah' in Indonesian-translated Bibles of their Christian friends for many many years, but they never accuse us of having secret agenda. They never get confused or get accidentally converted to Christianity. Is it because they 'tolerate' us?

No. It is because they embrace us.

Occasionally after work or during the weekends, we like to have meals together with our Muslim brothers and sisters. Sometimes we would have roti canai at Restoran Bilal. The next day it would be the Japanese Tauhu at Vui Kee. If we want to have nice ais kacang, we would go to Sharmis.

Is it because we 'tolerate' each other? Yes, when my friend insists on having ais kacang while I am craving for roti canai, of course we need to be tolerant with one another in coming up with the best solution.

But more than that, we also embrace each other.

When I first became a teacher 5 years ago, my Headmaster asked some of the non-Muslim teachers to help out as AJK Hadiah for Majlis Tilawah Al-Quran for our district. Being a small school, we didn't have enough teachers. No problem. We were more than happy to help out.

"But it's a Majlis Tilawah Al-Quran. You have to wear tudung", my Headmaster said.

"No problem", we said. We giggled gleefully as our fellow Muslim colleagues helped us put on the tudung, we even experimented with different styles and tried to match it with different kerongsangs. I was pretty sure that I looked like the famous singer Waheeda at that time.

We did that, not because we 'tolerate' our Muslim colleagues. We did that because we love them. We embrace them. We trust them.

Our students got the second place in the Nasyid Competition which was held simultaneously with the Tilawah Al-Quran. No words could express my feeling when the little children ran towards me with their arms open, pure innocent joy in their eyes, declaring proudly "Teacher! Teacher! We won! We won!"

I remembered opening my arms as wide as I could and EMBRACED the little ones, one by one.

(to the owner of this article, thanks for sharing)

Oh Malaysia...

2010-01-07T11:42:00.003+08:00

what is happening to Malaysia!?

TOO MUCH DRAMA!!!

seriously, act with poker faces some more, so cool!

some over exaggerating their act, walao!

how should we respond?

"let's clap clap our hands la... *@&#^%@&"

only people who are insecure needs ISA...

brainwashing??!

scape goats??!

LIES??!

S**Ts!

Bab1 s**ts... (whoops! ;p)

Malaysia needs HEEEELLLPPPPPP!

(oi, people, you listen or not, your negarakuku is getting funnier and funnier)

p/s: rumbling nonsense i guess...

the 'Name'

2010-01-06T11:12:00.004+08:00

[Alkitab Terjemahan Baru (TB)]

Yohanes (John) 17: 11-12

[ ... Ya Bapa yang kudus, peliharalah mereka dalam nama-Mu, yaitu nama-Mu yang telah Engkau berikan kepada-Ku, supaya mereka menjadi satu sama seperti Kita. Selama Aku bersama mereka, Aku memelihara mereka dalam nama-Mu, yaitu nama-Mu yang telah Engkau berikan kepada-Ku;... ]

Yohanes (John) 17:24-26

[ Ya Bapa, Aku mau supaya, di mana pun Aku berada, mereka juga berada bersama-sama dengan Aku, mereka yang telah Engkau berikan kepada-Ku, agar mereka memandang kemuliaan-Ku yang telah Engkau berikan kepada-Ku, sebab Engkau telah mengasihi Aku sebelum dunia dijadikan.

Ya Bapa yang adil, memang dunia tidak mengenal Engkau, tetapi Aku mengenal Engkau, dan mereka ini tahu, bahwa Engkaulah yang telah mengutus Aku; dan Aku telah memberitahukan nama-Mu kepada mereka dan Aku akan memberitahukannya, supaya kasih yang Engkau berikan kepada-Ku ada di dalam mereka dan Aku di dalam mereka." ]

Keluaran (Exodus) 3:13-15

[ Lalu Musa berkata kepada Allah: "Tetapi apabila aku mendapatkan orang Israel dan berkata kepada mereka: Allah nenek moyangmu telah mengutus aku kepadamu, dan mereka bertanya kepadaku: bagaimana tentang nama-Nya? - apakah yang harus kujawab kepada mereka?"

Firman Allah kepada Musa: "AKU ADALAH AKU." Lagi firman-Nya: "Beginilah kaukatakan kepada orang Israel itu: AKULAH AKU telah mengutus aku kepadamu."

Selanjutnya berfirmanlah Allah kepada Musa: "Beginilah kaukatakan kepada orang Israel: TUHAN, Allah nenek moyangmu, Allah Abraham, Allah Ishak dan Allah Yakub, telah mengutus aku kepadamu: itulah nama-Ku untuk selama-lamanya dan itulah sebutan-Ku turun-temurun. ... ]

Yesaya (Isaiah) 43:1

[ Tetapi sekarang, beginilah firman TUHAN yang menciptakan engkau, hai Yakub, yang membentuk engkau, hai Israel: "Janganlah takut, sebab Aku telah menebus engkau, Aku telah memanggil engkau dengan namamu, engkau ini kepunyaan-Ku. ...]

Yesaya (Isaiah) 40:25-26

[ Dengan siapa hendak kamu samakan Aku, seakan-akan Aku seperti dia? firman Yang Mahakudus.

Arahkanlah matamu ke langit dan lihatlah: siapa yang menciptakan semua bintang itu dan menyuruh segenap tentera mereka keluar, sambil memanggil nama mereka sekaliannya?

Satu pun tiada yang tak hadir, oleh sebab Ia maha kuasa dan maha kuat. ]

Wahyu (Revelation) 2:17

[ ... Siapa bertelinga, hendaklah ia mendengarkan apa yang dikatakan Roh kepada jemaat-jemaat:

Barangsiapa menang, kepadanya akan Kuberikan dari manna yang tersembunyi; dan Aku akan mengaruniakan kepadanya batu putih, yang di atasnya tertulis nama baru, yang tidak diketahui oleh siapa pun, selain oleh yang menerimanya." ]

What is a 'name'?

What do you know about 'name'?

The sum total of a person's internal and external pattern of behaviour is gathered up into his name... Knowing the name of a person is equivalent to knowing his essence...

a person's name is somehow very personal.

calling a person's name is a dearly act.

as been spoken in the book of Revelation, at the end of it, whoever triumph, a new name will be given by God, known only to Him and the receiver...

just like our 'family name' such as, 'Ah Di', 'Ah Nong', 'Den' (instead of Danny) etc, which only people close to you call us, our family members, our parents because they see us since we were born, they observe every bits of our life, and so they call us the 'names' to resemble 'who we are' to them, dear to their hearts...

the name which God calls us is different to the name/names/nick names that people call us (which many times sounds stupid, 'haunting', useless, meaningless, hurting, downgrading and bla bla bla)... God sees more in us, beyond what people sees, thinks of us...

"My dear, you are my beloved..."

He calls us as one who cares, who loves and one who always long to sit with us, embrace us... smile, laugh, cry with us... to go through everything we are going through... HE SEES & HE CARES...

DO YOU HEAR HIM CALLING YOUR NAME?

in a gentle whisper...

as who God reveals Himself as to Israel and many more people including us, He makes Himself known to His objects of love... He wants the people to know Him dearly, calling Him as who He reveals Himself as...

My Heart will trust in You

2010-01-06T10:44:00.002+08:00

I'll walk closer now on the higher way
Through the darkest night will you hold my hand
Jesus guide my way

O you mourn with me and you dance with me
For my heart of hearts is bound to you

Though I walk through valleys low
I'll fear no evil
By the waters still my soul,
My heart will trust in You

O You counsel me and You comfort me
When I cannot see,
You light my path

My heart will trust in you

A CHRISTmas sketch

2009-12-28T17:02:00.005+08:00

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2009-12-08T11:59:00.003+08:00

Yeremia 33:2-3

"Beginilah firman TUHAN, yang telah menjadikan bumi dengan membentuknya dan menegakkannya - TUHAN ialah nama-Nya - : Berserulah kepada-Ku, maka Aku akan menjawab engkau dan akan memberitahkan kepadamu hal-hal yang besar dan yang tidak terpahami, yakni hal-hal yang tidak kau ketahui. ..."

Mazmur 25:14

TUHAN bergaul karib dengan orang yang takut akan Dia, dan perjanjian-Nya diberitahukan-Nya kepada mereka.

Mazmur 37:7

Berdiam dirilah di hadapan TUHAN dan nantikanlah Dia

Menikmati Kasih

2009-11-19T13:00:00.002+08:00

Saat indah kuberhadapan denganMu
Memandang wajahMu Yesus kekasih jiwaku
Bawa daku erat dalam pelukanMu
Menikmati kasih dan indahNya hadiratMu

HadiratMu Tuhan kurasakan
KekudusanMu Bapa penuhiku
Kurindu selalu diam dalam baitMu
Menikmati kasih anugrahMu

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Are you aware of IT???

2009-11-18T13:16:00.003+08:00

…SOMETHING is crouching near...

grabbing to the very being of oneself...

the knowledge of IT,

the emotion towards IT...

1 Malaysia?

2009-11-05T10:17:00.002+08:00

what is "1 Malaysia"?

everything that being said and promoted on the tv screen, newspapers, magazines and radio... sounds great, promising and wonderful, towards a nation which is for all and not a certain party, without discrimination and favouritism...

is it possible, seeing the condition now?

is it true?

can be trusted or not??

somehow i do hope that it is!

but things around us just turn out to be not agreeable with this "1 Malaysia"...

...

where are you, oh 'Freedom'?

where are you, oh 'Justice'?

where are you, oh 'Unity'?

where are you, oh 'Malaysia'?

...

Is the name of JESUS CHRIST so revolting that people often flee and avoid even if we only manage to blurt out 'Je...'?

2009-11-03T11:36:00.002+08:00

why?

...a little bit of reading won't kill us ;)...

2009-11-03T10:58:00.007+08:00

Hebrews 4:14-16 (Ibrani 4:14-16)

Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess.

For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are-yet was without sin.

Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

knowing that Jesus is able to sympathize, He is a person with all the emotions and feelings, with a character, so much alive than we can ever imagine... don't you think that we need this Person?

whenever we are sad... He knows

whenever we are happy... He knows

whenever we are angry... He knows

whenever we feel timid... He knows

whenever we are scared... He knows

whenever we are hurt, disappointed by people and circumstances... He knows

and every little thing that happens in our life, He knows, He cares and He understands it all!

even though He is invisible, yet He is REAL... the moment we meet Him, sitting by His laps quietly, resting in His embrace... you'll know! I know! this is not crazy, it's not being lunatic...

it's the greatest RELATIONSHIP of all!

admit it, you and I long to have a true and real and promising relationship, one that you and I will definitely feel comfortable, secured... and it's just a heart away and a word apart...

"Jesus, I need you and I receive Your love, healing and forgiveness. Amin"

Romans 10:1-10 (Roma 10:1-10)

Brothers, my heart's desire and prayer to God for the Israelites is that they may be saved.

For I can testify about them that they are zealous for God, but their zeal is not based on knowledge. Since they did not know the righteousness that comes from God and sought to establish their own, they did not submit to God's righteousness.

Christ is the end of the law so that there may be righteousness for everyone who believes.

Moses describes in this way the righteousness that is by the law: "The man who does these things will live by them."

But the righteousness that is by faith says: "Do not say in your heart, 'Who will ascend into heaven?' " (that is, to bring Christ down) "or 'Who will descend into the deep?' " (that is, to bring Christ up from the dead).

But what does it say? "The word is near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart," that is, the word of faith we are proclaiming: That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved.

--{ bible verses taken from New International Version (NIV) }--

it is not about being a GOOD person... doing GOOD deeds ONLY... this life has more in store for everyone of us, don't you agree with me?

at times, i am sure we do feel 'we deserve more than this...' ... 'there must be more than all these...' ... 'this is not the place i belong to...' ... 'i can be greater than this...' ... 'there must be a better place out there...' ... 'i think i have a very solid reason to live in this world...' and bla bla bla...

have ever consider that the life itself is not a cycle of repetition? i mean... YOU are YOU, I am I and HE is HE or SHE is SHE... uniquely individual living in different times, generations and places... no one is the same as you and me before we are born and after we are dead!

it is just down grading the very value of our identity and meaning of life itself if we are to agree with the idea which says, 'after this life cycle, in the next one, you will become this or that, depending on how well or bad you perform now...'

you and me are uniquely made as an individual masterpiece and so are very valueable, just like the rare stones such as diamonds, emeralds, rubies etc being in small quatity in comparison to other minerals, have higher value than the rest of them!

peace;)

thinking... and wondering...

2009-11-03T10:09:00.004+08:00

how am i going to describe it?

... ... ...

i can no longer hiding in the shell... standing at the corner... being a spectator... being an audience to the scene of the reality...

knowing the Way, the Truth and the Light... called to be a peacemaker... to bring hope... reconciliation in relationships... yet...

why is this happening? how am i going to break through this veil covering me...

there is no use in FEELING it, KNOWING it but do not ACT to make a change about it...

where are the children of God? where are you? WHERE AM I?

hiding? keep quiet, chose to be a mute, a deaf and blind?

''please don't talk about it... i don't want to hear it anymore... it's the norm, it happens everyday... so what? ... what do i care so much about it?... you talk so loud, you do la!?... other people also don't do, why do i need to move my ass of my comfy bed?..." ATTITUDE???!

Roma 8:18-22 (Rome chapter 8 verse 18 to 22)

Sebab dengan sangat rindu seluruh makhluk menantikan saat anak-anak Allah dinyatakan. Karena seluruh makhluk telah ditaklukkan kepada kesia-siaan, bukan oleh kehendaknya sendiri, tetapi oleh kehendak Dia, yang telah menaklukkannya, tetapi dalalm pengharapan, karena makhluk itu sendiri juga akan dimerdekakan dari perbudakan kebinasaan dan masuk ke dalam kemerdekaan kemuliaan anak-anak Allah. Sebab kita tahu, bahwa sekarang segala makhluk sama-sama mengeluh dan sama-sama merasa sakit bersalin.

Amos 8:11 (Amos chapter 8 verse 11)

"Sesungguhnya, waktu akan datang," demikianlah firman Tuhan ALLAH, "Aku akan mengirimkan kelaparan ke negeri ini, bukan kelaparan akan makanan dan bukan kehausan akan air, melainkan akan mendengarkan firman TUHAN. ..."

Yesaya 58:6-12 (Isaiah chapter 58 verse 6 to 12)

Bukan! Berpuasa yang Kukehendaki, ialah supaya engkau membuka belenggu-belenggu kelaliman, dan melepaskan tali-tali kuk, supaya engkau memerdekakan orang yang teraniaya dan mematahkan setiap kuk, supaya engkau memecah-mecah rotimu bagi orang yang lapar dan membawa ke rumahmu orang miskin yang tak punya rumah, dan apabila engkau memberi dia pakaian dan tidak menyembunyikan diri terhadap saudaramu sendiri!

Pada waktu itulah terangmu akan merekah seperti fajar dan lukamu akan pulih dengan segera; kebenaran menjadi barisan depanmu dan kemuliaan TUHAN barisan belakangmu.

Pada waktu itulah engkau akan memanggil dan TUHAN akan menjawab, engkau akan berteriak minta tolong dan Ia akan berkata: Ini Aku!

Apabila engkau tidak lagi mengenakan kuk kepada sesamamu dan tidak lagi menunjuk-nunjuk orang dengan jari dan memfitnah, apabila engkau menyerahkan kepada orang lapar apa yang kauinginkan sendiri dan memuaskan hati orang tertindas maka terangmu akan terbit dalam gelap dan kegelapanmu akan seperti rembang tengah hari.

TUHAN akan menuntun engkau senantiasa dan akan memuaskan hatimu di tanah yang kering, dan akan membaharui kekuatanmu; engkau akan seperti taman yang diairi dengan baik dan seperti mata air yang tidak pernah mengecewakan.

Engkau akan membangun reruntuhan yang sudah berabad-abad, dan akan memperbaiki dasar yang diletakkan oleh banyak keturunan. Engkau akan disebut "yang memperbaiki tembok yang tembus", "yang membetulkan jalan supaya tempat itu dapat dihuni".

--(the bible verses stated are taken from Alkitab Bahasa Indonesia Terjemahan Baru)--

we knew... we have read and listened to it and about it over and over again... BUT... how does it impact our lives? do we let the Word speak to us and root in our heart to bring forth the fruits? or just take it as the wind blowing through our hair??

it's just getting heavier and heavier...

an update...

2009-10-19T15:23:00.004+08:00

at this moment, i am sitting in the International Christian Mission office, located at Jalan Medan Pasar, near the Petaling Street and Central Market a.k.a. Pasar Seni...

not really working, yet... it's the 2 week trial till the end of this month.

so... what am i doing here, as you might think? becoming a missionary? nope, not really but just working in a office, (duh...)... in charge of newsletter and praise and prayer letter and stuffs... so consider it a ministry? that's what they said... but for me, hmm... i work dulu lah...

oh, such a dilemma! work or continue... or doing other things (even so, what can i do if not cari duit makan sara diri dan bantu keluarga? bongok betul la soalan nih... ish ish ish... well...)

yea, i do have the tendency to give up, withdraw from doing all the things which are being laid in front of me and stay in a room! wao! jadi freaky zombie! (oh ya, all are welcomed to play the Plants vs Zombies by Popcap!)

ok, if God wills, then i might already have a place here, in this ICM, though i always have the fear of not being able to keep up with the demands of the work and the expectations from the boss.

oh, by the end of this month, we, fellows of Bethel are going to have internet connection! it's streamyx... not p1wimax... apa-apa saja la...

and i might move out from kajang to somewhere near KL! if that's His will! oh, rasa tak sanggup tinggalkan! i wanted to keep up with them in persons, those i wanted to always share and grow together, and witness their life, tak sanggup mahu lepaskan mereka!

and perhaps pecel lele! those who don't know, just drop by Shakers (a mamak restaurant) at hentian kajang. pecel will only be available from 1pm till 10pm daily except friday or otherwise they cuti-cuti sendiri...

i will need to learn to do video clips, webpages, more effective ways in doing newsletter and designing and perhaps adobe photoshop too! wahai otak ku yang dah karat, masanya untuk kau digilap dan di'overload'kan...

after a long holiday...

2009-09-18T15:55:00.003+08:00

super duper lazyioussss...

so i came to this Merdeka Centre in Bangi, in the Bangi Warta Bintang area, and filled up a form and got interviewed informally, and that's it. i am now an interviewer, well, part-timely.

and so, working there was so so terrible! first because of the 'waking up early and work till 6 or 7pm' routine... plus calling to get respondents to do the questionaires... wargh... work my mouth out more than i usually do is not me wei...

honestly, the thought of quiting was quickly to surface and pushing and waiting to explode in my head!... yea... i wanna run and hide...

after a while, it is kinda fun actually. because some of the respondents are quite vocal in expressing their opinions about the current issues, some of them (elderly) are cute in keep telling 'i don't know about this and that... bla bla bla...' then laugh...

some of the interviewers seriously are funny in the way they persuading people to accept the interviews, holding them to finish till the last question...

well... this tele-interviewer thingy... i guess i am going to do it for about 3 months or until i got another job.

... WORK ... whatever, just do to gain different experiences and be aware that God is truly wanting to shape and prepare us through these experiences. i need to hold on to the knowledge that You, Jesus is always working with me, if not, it will all seems meaningless, truly meaningless till can be suicidal!

ok, about the internet connection... thinking of taking P1WiMax but for now, the 'line' or whatever, is still not stable in hentian kajang area, so thinking of just taking the stremyx since the cable guy came one day, but unfortunately nobody at home! so he left...

the decision? don't know... ok la, that's all la, for this post!

thank you 'beli mach' whatever... -.-'''

i don't understand... what did they mean...

2009-09-05T16:39:00.002+08:00

well, we went to telekom, applying to install streamyx at Bethel (our place in hentian). after one month, still tarak orang datang install, apa nih!?

when we called to ask about it, they said, 'no enough cable... bla bla bla... hentian kajang punya kabel streamyx sudah penuh... bla bla bla...'

HUH??! apa maksud?

aiyo...

prat time as telesurveyer (?) will start on monday... just do while waiting for other opportunities, whatever...

as for convo photos and videos, hmm, belum ada banyak masa untuk upload. there are still a lot more photos out there which i haven't collect from... so, mr. Au Yong, tunggu la...

the aftermath!

2009-08-19T17:18:00.002+08:00

of ukm convo-37...

well...

at last the chapter in ukm has finally come to an end, after 5 YEARS of being stranded there...

yup, captured a lot of photos and videos... will upload some soon... still waiting for the streamyx to be installed at Bethel.

thanks everyone for making my days in ukm, from first day first year, till the final day of my 5th YEAR. grad like a 'medic student'! ;p

many struggles ahead, dat is for sure. and of course, there must be more than this!

yey... AT LAST...

2009-08-15T16:06:00.001+08:00

ok... convocation on 18th august, UKM, sidang petang... 5pm habis...

trimas...

then, i blog...

2009-07-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

only when it's connected...

2009-07-05T20:54:00.003+08:00

gosh... life without internet connection is so much... errm... boring?? but yet it's a good thing! you know, get to read the books i left behind with the last page i was reading bookmarked...

now, i'm reading the biography of kathryn kuhlman, "daughter of destiny"... it's interesting! i'm half way through already...

... and i wanted to study more bout... the word of God...

...

which i've left for like 2 or 3 months already!

oh ya, bout the house name... hmm... charis suggested me 'Bethel', i had that in my thought too, then 'Pniel' came... as well as 'Selah'... so one of these 3 names...

Bethel = house of God

Pniel = meet God face to face

Selah = a pause, rest (probably to be still in the presence of God)

and everyone came back to the house already. guess it's time to have some discussions bout the things needed (periuk nasi, PISAU, etc) and some cleaning ups too ;)

and of course, waiting for philo gotong-royong day too, just leanding a hand to help out and ... perhaps take those unwanted things to my house, wakakakkaka... sounds like what... -.-'''

will apply for streamyx (or something else) within this month, depend on my fellow house mates ;)

new place... new life?? ('_')~

2009-06-16T16:37:00.003+08:00

finally, moved into the new apartment... on friday evening (12june2009)

hmm... it's empty... nearly la, and dusty! with some boxes and stuffs left by previous residents... so, had to work it out! wanted to throw everything out from the apartment, but in the end, kept some, large portion of it -.-''', at least it looks cleaner and 'kemas' now...

i had to bring a mattress over from philo (and good thing i did) because there is nothing there in the room! i think i need to take one fan there as well (after i fixed them in philo)... at first i wanted to bring the clothed rack too from my philo room but since i found there are 2 left by the people there, i guess i'll use one of them instead.

surprisingly, there are alot of shoes, sandals and slippars left! mungkin mau jual saja la...

one tv, out of order already...

one monitor, don't know still can be used or not...

one table fan, also cannot be used...

(but, after some fixes, it finally moves... but can't really feel the wind! crappy...)

not to mention the one big concern... the toilet! it's partially clogged! the drainage is bad, wondering how am i going to wash my clothes with water flowing back from the 'lubang' (not the mangkuk tandas)

speaking of the mangkuk tandas, salur dari mangkuk tandas itu kebocoran juga... masa 'flush' itu kan, air 'leaking' dari paip itu! yiii.....

still, i like the wide space in the living room (no furnitures around) and in my current room (with my boxes and luggage, and raymond - my roommate-to-be's), and not to forget the 'greens' where the apartment is facing to, one thing which the furniture complex has blocked Philo from...

yet, i'm going to miss the sideway in front of Philo where i can spend my personal time alone with the Creator of my surrounding and everything!

hmm... wanted to name the apartment so that it can be referred to easily, any suggestion?

- Ahava/Ahawa

- Agape

- Calvary

- ... ???

heheheh...

moving out from Philo soon...

2009-06-04T23:11:00.002+08:00

most probably by next week, i'm going to move into a new place in Hentian Kajang!

going to bid good-bye to Philo...

haih, but i'm kinda lazy to pack my stuffs right now! boxes and bags everywhere...
and i need to work soon... oh my...

some pictures...

2009-06-02T17:01:00.004+08:00

annual dinner perkeb 2009,

Broga Hill, 8 may 2009...

Camp Cameron 11-30 may 2009...

the first camp special... the malay house

the second camp special... pirates

the last night...

sampat picture...

and i got my chance to do inai! muahahaha, i hav a lot of 'lab rats' for my henna (thanks for buying the henna, adelyin!)

a poem??? (expressed during CampCam09)

2009-06-02T15:49:00.004+08:00

... ...

God... my Home...
In times I wander around, searching...
in the loss of myself...
the true meaning in my life...

... ...

God is the one place
I can take comfort from and stay in
rest in Him
rest in Jesus, my Home

(sigh)

I need to bring myself back,
back to the Home,
the source of everything

What am I searching?
What am I desperate for?
What am I running away from?

What is the Freedom?
What is the Rest?

Do I understand it?

Am I inside or am I outside...
staring at the door
wondering...
whether I'm in or outside the Home...

"you know..." says the Voice...
I'm listening in hesitation

"just do it... the truth..."
I am hesitating...

In the end
as long as I am thinking and wanting to move...
that one first move won't happen...

"grant me the courage and boldness"
I ask...

but I haven't really decide and resolve on that One matter!

to have pure faith in the complete work of Jesus done on the Cross...
to understand the meaning and receive this Wonder...
This glorious Work...

hey...
see it in Jesus Christ!
Let yourself be found again and again in Him...
the glorious wonderful Word of God...

... ...

and the Life continues...

Camp Cameron 2009... by FES...

2009-06-02T15:20:00.003+08:00

dahsyat! luar biasa! yes! yes! yes!... dahsyat! excellent! fantastik!... (yea, these 'yell' are from SPK=Saya Pengikut Kristus, but whateva, since i can't describe it in any other way, for now...)

that's all i can describe it... the whole experience is beyond words!

i love my family, the d'9 family, kinda right the moment i met them (i came on the 2nd day, due to the oral test and correction for my thesis)!

...it's ok, it's alright, come on 9 knights, fight, fight, fight!!!... that's the first thing i learnt, when i first met my family on the games session!

all the people are so cute, lovely... bubbly (description like america's next top model~~~)... truly, they are like my brothers and sisters, and i just wish to 'geram' with them, like squeezing and cubit them as if they were some kind of soft toys!!! muahahahahahha!

i love the diversity of the people, i enjoy the different taste, in fact unique taste of everyone!

amazing God! everyone has his own story to tell, uniquely and personally to them God has imbued to our life! learning to embrace this 'life' is something we all need to learn, then let God works all things out from our life, if only we let Him...

...

God bless! shalom and amen!

a glimpse of my life in UKM... (akan diterbitkan dalam buletin PERKEB)

2009-04-08T17:41:00.005+08:00

“Kemudian Aku melepaskan tabuhan mendahului kamu dan binatang-binatang ini menghalau mereka dari depanmu, seperti kedua raja orang Amori itu. Sesungguhnya, bukan oleh pedangmu dan bukan pula oleh panahmu.” (Yosua 24:12)

Terkenang kembali masa-masa dulu, peralihan (transition) dari tingkatan 6 ke universiti… memikirkan persoalan-persoalan seperti, ‘di manakah akan saya pergi?’, ‘apakah yang akan saya ceburi?’, ‘bagaimanakah kehidupan di uni nanti?’, ‘macam mana dengan orang-orang yang akan saya temui?’, bla bla bla… apatah lagi akan meninggalkan keluarga dan pergi ke tempat lain begitu, untuk kali pertama J

‘Anda mendapat tawaran di UKM…’ adalah jawapan yang diperoleh melalui panggilan telefon dan saya terus pikir, ‘wah! Jauhnya, semenanjung nih! I can’t believe this!’. Ya la, selalu mengidam pergi tempat lain tapi tidak pernah terpikir atau mempunyai harapan untuk pergi Kuala Lumpur, seperti sesuatu yang tidak mungkin! Excited! Lagipula, mendapat program Biologi, 2nd choice saya, sebab impian untuk menjadi seorang saintis/biologist konon la. Saat ini, apabila melihat kembali, UKM dan biologi adalah pilihan pertama saya sebenarnya di waktu saya sekolah menengah lagi apabila saya berpeluang untuk mengenali universiti dan program-program yang ditawarkan! Dan sekarang tesis saya berkisarkan serangga, juga adalah tajuk yang telah saya impikan jauh sebelum saya masuk uni sebenarnya! Tuhan telah mengingatkan saya kembali masa-masa dulu di mana saya mengimpikan perkara-perkara ini! Terima kasih Tuhan… Mazmur 37:4 “dan bergembiralah karena TUHAN; maka Ia akan memberikan kepadamu apa yang diinginkan hatimu.”

Sekarang, saya berada dalam tahun ke-5 pengajian saya di UKM (akibat yang perlu saya tanggung hasil daripada sikap acuh tak acuh saya J)! Biarpun begitu, saya bersyukur kepada Tuhan kerana Dia masih tetap memelihara saya sampai saat ini, memberi peluang kepada saya untuk mengalami banyak perkara, menjumpai sesuatu di dalam hidup saya dan semua yang sekeliling saya.

Dalam 5 tahun ini, banyak yang telah saya pelajari, ada yang berulang-ulang kali diingatkan. Di gereja, melalui penglibatan dalam organisasi-organisasi seperti Bulan Sabit Merah Malaysia, dan PERKEB! Banyak orang dengan pelbagai latar belakang dan sejarah masing-masing, bertemu dan mencorakkan hidup sesama sendiri. Dalam masa ini, saya memperoleh keyakinan untuk kembali kepada gereja saya di Sibu, SIB Betel; saya mengenal balik dan diingatkan kembali Tuhan Yesus Kristus, beban yang telah diletakkan di dalam hati, dan (mungkin) panggilan Dia dalam hidup saya, saya dibawa kembali… saya belajar untuk menerima diri saya kembali dengan perspektif yang diperbaharui; saya belajar untuk bergaul dengan orang di sekitar saya (saya ambil masa agak lama untuk ‘hangat’ dalam pergaulan, selesa dalam perkumpulan orang, hehe, entah patutkah saya bersyukur atas penyakit ‘kesampatan’ yang menular dalam PERKEB ini?)… saya dituntun untuk mengenal harta yang berkelimpahan melalui Firman Tuhan!

Memang banyak bergumul sepanjang masa dalam kehidupan ini! Cubaan dalam hidup! Saya telah terjerumus dalam pornografi semasa saya masih di kolej! I even asked my friend to lend me the CD! Akibatnya, pikiran saya sering dihantui gambaran-gambaran yang menjijikkan. Syukur kepada Tuhan sebab saya bergumul untuk mengatasi masalah ini, dan saya mengerti saya tidak mempunyai kekuatan untuk melawan keinginan mata dan daging ini, sungguh tidak mampu, sering mengalah. Saya telah berjumpa dengan seorang sahabat dan bercerita dengan dia pasal diri saya dan kami berdoa, dengan Tuhan sebagai saksi kami.

Kini, Firman Tuhan yang saya renungkan, saya menghafalnya, dan puji Tuhan atas Firman-Nya yang sering memperbaharui pikiran saya, walaupun ada masanya gambaran-gambaran seksual muncul dalam pikiran, ianya tidak lagi mampu bertahan! Yohanes 17:17 mencatatkan “Kuduskanlah mereka dalam kebenaran; firman-Mu adalah kebenaran.” Tetapkanlah diri kita untuk merenungkan firman Tuhan selalu sebab hanya Tuhanlah yang berkuasa untuk menghancurkan benteng-benteng halangan dalam hidup kita yang mana kita berharap untuk memperoleh penerobosan (breakthrough), Yeremia 23:29 “Bukankah firman-Ku seperti api, demikianlah firman TUHAN dan seperti palu yang menghancurkan bukit batu?”

Namun masih terdapat banyak lagi yang memerlukan pemulihan, pemulihan yang berterusan (seperti tetap melakukan firman Tuhan di mana saja saya berada)! Saudara-saudari, ingatlah akan Tuhan dan sama-sama kita belajar dan renungkan firman Tuhan selalu. Tidakkah kalian rindu untuk mendapat ‘kejutan harijadi’ daripada Tuhan selalu saat kita belajar, merenung dan melakukan firman-Nya?

Segala sesuatu yang berlaku telah memberi saya satu pelataran untuk melayani orang-orang di sekeliling saya. Terlalu banyak untuk saya menceritakan segala yang berlaku hanya dalam 5 tahun ini sahaja! Apatah lagi jikalau bercerita pasal hidup diri saya dan segala yang telah saya saksikan sampai saat ini.

Namun, saya melihat suatu perubahan yang bakal terjadi dalam kalangan kita, di PERKEB khasnya, hanya jika kita benar-benar merendahkan diri dan mencari Tuhan! Saya melihat kesannya pasti menular ke seluruh UKM! Kenalkanlah beban (bukan stress, tapi burden) yang telah Tuhan letakkan dalam hati setiap kita dan berdoalah dengan beban ini, pasti akan terjadi mukjizat yang luar biasa kepada diri kita dan semua orang sekali gus!

Kembali kepada Yosua 24:12, yang telah Tuhan tegurkan saya waktu cuti sem2, tahun 2008. Segala sesuatu yang berlaku, seperti yang kita tahu, adalah dalam tangan Tuhan dan Dialah yang mengaturkan perjalanan hidup kita. Banyak masa kita cuba dan selalu ingin melakukan banyak perkara dalam hidup kita, dengan ‘pedang’ (short-term goals in life) dan dengan ‘panah’ (long-term goals in life), lalu mengabaikan bahwa Tuhan sebenarnya telah menyediakan (atau clear out the ways for us) jalan buat kita dengan cara yang sangat ‘natural’, iaitu dengan melepaskan tabuhan (hornets) untuk menghalau ‘musuh-musuh’ kita. Ingatlah bahwa Allah mengerti dan Ia peduli… sudikah kita bersorak menyanyikan pujian kerana Dia? Mazmur 22:4 “Padahal Engkaulah Yang Kudus yang bersemayam di atas puji-pujian orang Israel.” Hadirat Tuhan menjadi lebih nyata saat kita memuji Dia dengan hati yang benar.

Berjaga-jagalah senantiasa, be watchful always, kerana banyak perkara di sekeliling kita yang kita langsung tidak memberi perhatian, adalah berpotensi untuk menghancurkan hidup kita. Sama-samalah kita membantu untuk menemukan potensi dan keunikan dalam setiap diri kita dan membangunkan Tubuh Kristus bersama-sama. Brothers and sisters, you are amazing because God is amazing! Wonderful! Terima kasih kepada kalian kerana sudi memberi respon kepada Tuhan dan hidup kalian dan saya bertemu di tempat sini, PERKEB, biarpun banyak di antara kalian yang hanya setakat ‘hi-bye’ atau senyuman…

Doa saya, agar saudara-saudari sudi membuka hati masing-masing kepada Allah untuk Dia menanamkan benih Hati-Nya, menerima visi Allah bagi PERKEB dan UKM, seterusnya dipimpin Tuhan untuk memenuhi kehendak-Nya di tempat ini. Teruslah bersekutu dengan Roh Allah sebab Dialah yang dekat di dalam hatimu pada saat ini, Dialah yang membawa diri kita untuk menyembah Allah Bapa dan Tuhan Yesus Kristus. Biarlah kasih Tuhan yang hidup dalam hubungan sesama kalian. Terus berdiri teguh dan menetapkan mata pada Yesus Kristus yang adalah sumber pengharapan kita, sentiasa ingat akan Tuhan dalam apa jua keadaan. Puji Tuhan atas hadirat kalian di PERKEB dan UKM, Allah memberkati kalian, amin.

freaky SQUIRRELLLLLLLL....!!!

2009-03-02T21:43:00.005+08:00

it's Monday!... it's March the 2nd!!!... it's dinner time, at night!!! IT'S FREAKY SQUIRREL TIME!!! scream out loud... ARRRGHHH~~~~~~~!!!!!

and it happened in Philo! this dark agile little monster jumped into Mei Fung's room, out of nowhere, surprising her, sampai 'chuak' tak tentu arah dan jerit menggelabah!

she quickly ran down the stairs and shouted, 'adris, quick!!! come up here, there's something in my room! it's black! i'm so scared to my guts!... (-.-)''' so i sped up to see what was it but couldn't find anything. all i saw was Mei Fung went in the room and in a blink of eyes, she was standing on her bed already! 'is that so scary?'

well, at first, i thought it was something like small fox, like Melvin once encountered in his room while he was still staying in Philo with us before. he said a small fox sneaked into his room in the middle of the night and he 'chuak' sampai bangun, but the ..fox.. got off through the window. some more he said the ..fox.. left some odour around his room. and we joked it might be the 'fox spirit' 狐狸精 wanting to seduce him!

or perhaps squirrels playing light sabers acting jedi!

all sound like it's the evil squirrel attacking people, surprising them in the dark with the stare and quick jumping actions, from one corner to another! serious...

it's just a cute squirrel who is scared at giants jumping up and down with loud noises "it's there!... no, it ran to that side... faster! SO SCARRRYYYYY!!!", wanting to escape from the panicking giants.

tambahan, Ying See who was preparing nasi goreng in the kitchen, heard the noises upstairs, so she came up in curiosity! mana tau, the tiny squirrel tiba-tiba ran off from Shireen's table towards Ying See's! guess what, she screamed in panic and ran down the stairs, with Mei Fung on the bed of course. but then Mei Fung and i laughed it off so hard that we almost forgot our mission: to capture the squirrel!

fuuh! after circling the room for don't know how long, chasing the squirrel, finally, it ran out the room, down to the stairs!

cerita belum habis lagi! itu tupai ah, tak nampak pintu yang luas dibuka, tapi pergi masuk dalam rak kasut, kemudian lari keluar dan naik tangga lagi, so saya jerit, 'Mei Fung, tutup pintu!'... 'what??!', so i ran up again to look for it, i asked Mei Fung but she said she don't know because she was busy shutting the windows. so i scouted Kin Onn's room... not a trace, closed the door, went to Jenny's room, heard some noise among the plastics... Mei Fung came out her room and closed the door and stood on the chair watching.

tiba-tiba the tupai lari keluar... yes, 'WARRGGHHH!'. so i went out, wanted to close the door but she said 'wait for me to get into Jenny's room first!' and so i searched among the timbunan barang di luar bilik itu... maka tupai tu keluar lagi lari turun ke bawah.

mana tau, Ying See shouting from the kitchen, ''what! wait! don't come down first, i'm cooking now!" of course, i was laughing all the time! syok man! it was so much fun!

i looked into the kitchen and i saw Ying See squating on a stool, nex to the stove, she was gorenging nasi! funny! sambil "where is it? where is it? don't let it come to kitchen", Mei Fung pula di tangga jerit "Ying See, dia lari masuk dalam dapur sudah!... adris cepat, ambil kotak simpan di tangga, nanti dia naik kembali!..." saya pun bingung dibuat mereka...

akhirnya, si tupai yang gelisah menggelabah lari lintang dan pukang dari atas ke bawah dan ke atas lagi dan ke bawah lagi, pusing dalam bilik beberapa round, i can imagine tupai itu dengan muka selamba dengan gerakan lincah dia... (lihat gambar di bawah)... yang seterusnya, lari keluar dari Philo dengan buntut menghala ke dalam Philo, bidding good-bye, saying "thanks for the fun, i'm getting healthier now"

hoping to get this kind of fun once in a while rite?! gosh, it's really fun, super laughter made my day! and of course the sweats... fuuh...

Ku Kerjakan Visi-Mu

2009-03-02T17:40:00.004+08:00

Bawaku berjalan bersama-Mu

Tuhanlah yang jadi kekuatanku

Dan taruh roh-Mu dalam hatiku

Agar kukenal kehendak-Mu

Ini aku ingatlah Tuhan

Kuberikan hidupku bagi-Mu

Berapapun harga yang 'kan kubayar

Ku kerjakan visi-Mu

this is one powerful song with strong lyric, at least for me personally!

well, i'm still searching for this song, one complete song because for now i only have one incomplete one which tergantung di akhir lagu itu.

ini adalah sebuah lagu kesaksian oleh seorang saudari pada tahun 2000...

"Bulan julai tahun 2000, saya mengalami masa-masa yang sulit, ketika itu saya tahu Allah memanggil saya untuk mengerjakan visi Allah. tapi waktu itu, saya harus meninggalkan semua impian saya, semua harapan saya untuk saya masuk, untuk saya melangkah mengerjakan visi Allah... di tengah petang-petang saya, di tengah kebimbangan saya, saya mulai masuk menyembah Tuhan, saya mulai memuji Tuhan, saat itu Allah memberikan saya lagu ini, lewat lagu ini Tuhan katakan bahawa Tuhan yang berikan saya kekuatan, Tuhan yang berikan kita kekuatan untuk kita mengerjakan visi Allah, dan saya tahu ketika Allah menaruh Roh-Nya dalam hati saya, saat itu juga saya mengenal kehendak-Nya..."

"Mari saudara bersama-sama, kita berdiri di hadapan Allah, responi panggilan Allah dalam hidup kita. Allah memanggil setiap kita untuk melakukan kehendak-Nya, berjalan dalam visi Allah... hari ini sudah 2 tahun saya lalui bersama-sama dengan Tuhan, saya lihat kasih setia Tuhan, penyertaan Tuhan nyata dalam hidup saya. Allah allah yang setia, Dia allah yang tidak pernah berhutang, ketika kita mengerjakan visi Allah, Allah mencurahkan berkat-Nya buat kita. ketika kita masuk dalam rancangan Allah, Tuhan memberikan segala yang kita perlukan. hari ini saya melihat visi Allah terjadi dalam hidup saya! saya ingin setiap jemaat Tuhan mulai masuk dalam visi Allah, tinggal di dalamnya, dan melakukannya dalam hidup kita. haleluya."

another created... 曲烽 / Qv Feng!

2009-03-01T16:22:00.006+08:00

first of all, thanks Soo How for scanning the sketch!

introducing 曲烽 (Qv Feng)... tetiba saja dia jadi bangsa Cina kan... (-.-)''' ... well, ini adalah sketching yang saya agak puas hati, walaupun ianya tidak berapa perfect!

after scanned into computer, i editted the picture using 'Paint' to add colours and 'Microsoft Office Picture Manager' to darken the picture. so, tak berapa cantik kaler dia...
the first thing i did was the eyes because i wanted the eyes to be alive, captivating, deep...

then, i went on to add in some colours to other areas. and here is one of the results.
remember Fazril which i posted before? itu discan dengan bantuan Mr. Au Yong, dengan beberapa lagi gambar yang discan masa kami masih kolej Dato' Onn dulu.

jadi, ini dia...
hmm... sudah ada hero dan heroin... Malay + Cina?? jadi apakah kisah mereka?

contoh kesampatan

2009-02-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

adris"le@Njau" says (11:15 AM):

apa macam?

simon says (11:17 AM):

macam kucing di singapore

adris"le@Njau" says (11:25 AM):

oh... ada gambar?

adris"le@Njau" says (11:25 AM):

mau tengok

adris"le@Njau" says (11:25 AM):

perbezaan kucing msia dan sgpore

simon says (11:26 AM):

hahaha

simon says (11:26 AM):

telinga macam doraemon

adris"le@Njau" says (11:28 AM):

hidung macam babi

adris"le@Njau" says (11:41 AM):

how's work?

simon says (11:42 AM):

hhaha

simon says (11:42 AM):

yeah

simon says (11:42 AM):

w u noe?

simon says (11:43 AM):

teruk

simon says (11:43 AM):

macam babi

simon says (11:43 AM):

hehe

adris"le@Njau" says (11:44 AM):

ya ka... aduh...

simon says (11:44 AM):

yeah

adris"le@Njau" says (11:45 AM):

ok... kerja macam babi... den macam mana dengan orang nya?

adris"le@Njau" says (11:45 AM):

'the pig slayer' ka?

simon says (11:48 AM):

slay sama saya

adris"le@Njau" says (11:49 AM):

kena slay kerja ka?

adris"le@Njau" says (11:49 AM):

aduh... apa nak jadi nih?

adris"le@Njau" says (11:50 AM):

patut la api hampir padam...

adris"le@Njau" says (11:51 AM):

nak buat babi panggang pun tak boleh

simon says (11:51 AM):

makan fresh lo

simon says (11:52 AM):

tak perlu api untuk panggang 1 ma

adris"le@Njau" says (11:52 AM):

ye... tak sedap lo

adris"le@Njau" says (11:52 AM):

tak ada nikmat lo

simon says (11:53 AM):

"yo malaysian wei dou gou liao"

adris"le@Njau" says (11:53 AM):

tanpa api dalam slayer... macam mana nak nikmat slay the babis le?

simon says (11:53 AM):

tak perlu babi tase

simon says (11:53 AM):

taste

adris"le@Njau" says (11:54 AM):

apu!

adris"le@Njau" says (11:54 AM):

JE, nipah, macam macam ada...

adris"le@Njau" says (11:54 AM):

perlu ada api... untuk SANCTIFY all babis!

simon says (11:57 AM):

eleh... JE got cure d

simon says (11:57 AM):

dun care la

simon says (11:57 AM):

ada masalah baru api la

adris"le@Njau" says (11:59 AM):

Jantung Expired tarak cure

simon says (12:03 PM):

then got eternal fire d

simon says (12:03 PM):

tak perlu api skrang

simon says (12:03 PM):

ahahahaha

adris"le@Njau" says (12:05 PM):

kan kata hampir padam... aiyo... kuatkan lah...

adris"le@Njau" says (12:05 PM):

eternal fire pun perlu ada eternal fuel ma

simon says (12:06 PM):

hahaha

simon says (12:07 PM):

petrol mahal

simon says (12:07 PM):

perlu sacrifice alot

adris"le@Njau" says (12:08 PM):

amma...

adris"le@Njau" says (12:09 PM):

yien de boring ge??

The Eagle

2009-02-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

made this for my sister's school magazine club's t-shirt

tak boleh sms...?

2009-02-20T20:31:00.003+08:00

haih... dah satu minggu lebih tak dapat sms. so after one whole week, i went to Kajang Celcom centre, wanting to upgrade the SIM card, following the recommendation by the service operator, saying that my original SIM card minght be too old that i needed to change it, just give it a try and then see whether can send sms afterwards.

so after persekutuan doa this morning, i went to the Celcom centre. after a long walk from Metro Kajang, i reached the place acting like a fool, looking around with a face asking for help... ok, then i met the Celcom lady and she tried my SIM card... guess what, sms sent! meaning my phone got problem? after a while trying this and that, she suggested me to upgrade the SIM card and i agreed. after i got the upgraded SIM card, right, STILL CANNOT SEND ANY SMS!!!!!!!!!

started to think 'gosh, dont tell me that this sony ericsson pulak yang rosak!!! no!!!'

as the last advice, she asked me to go to check my phone at kedai telepon, and so i went to Metro Kajang, not knowing where to look for sony ericsson punya kedai, so i walked around...

it seemed that there is no kedai sony ericsson around the Metro Kajang, so i went the 1st floor punya kedai telepon and he checked my phone, saying nothing is wrong with my phone but asked me to check the phone number for Celcom sms centre aka go to Celcom booth or whatever Celcom place there is... (-.-)'''

so he kinda gave up, saying 'you better check this number whether it is the number for Celcom sms centre, bcos i checked ur phone, thr is nothing wrong with the setting and stuff...'

'gosh... help... how? what to do??!'

right after that i went to a corner and started to play around with the sms centre number. i deleted the number and re-enter the same number via copy-paste, and 'damn, it's this simple!'.

finally, i can sms!

oh ya, before i went ot the kedai telepon, i decided to buy a new SIM card and try it on my phone. yea, crap, same thing happened, 'sms sent failed' kept popping out on my phone.

so now, i have 2 Celcom numbers! arrgh, so dumb! but thankGod, now we can interchange the telco provider!... so which one to choose? Digi perhaps...

nah, my latest photo... erm, not really

2009-02-19T17:03:00.002+08:00

since ada orang yang minta-minta mau lihat gambar saya... jadi inilah dia! ambik!

this is taken by Mr. Chong Hoc Mun! after Malam Muzikal Krismas 2009 at Dewan Sri Kayangan, Kelab Rekreasi UKM.

ok, sudah puas tengok gambar saya?? heheheh

giving praise?? minta pujian??

2009-02-17T15:30:00.004+08:00

last night, Philo buat makan-makan gathering... kinda messy, a lot of people! ~32 of us in the house! stuffy, warm... full!

from 3.30pm, started to clean up the living room and kitchen, plus the foyer, cook the chicken soup for steamboat... thank God, everything ready and tidy (to my standard la, at least lebih luas ;)

walked in and out in the midst of the feast... right after they left, kemas barang, mop lantai+meja... fuuh, selesai, bersih, it's amazing that all done within 1 or 2 hour! by 12am, dah siap! good workout!

kalau biasa, memang malas mau buat! kalau bukan kekuatan Tuhan, saya takkan dapat lakukannya, dengan peluh sekali! Thank You, Lord...

...

ok, Yvonne asked me bout her potato salad, whether it's nice or not. well, usually for me, as long as it's edible, it's all ok unless the food really bad! whenever people ask me this kind of questions, i honestly don't know how to answer them, in pproper way and of course with sincerity.

then, a thought came in: "...i don't know how say it, how it tastes in my mouth, whether it makes me feel good, but since you have put your effort and love in preparing it, for that i'm going to give you praise..."

it is not the things we do to please God, things physically we think God is pleased with, seeing and 'tasting' these things we do... but He sees pass through all these which we human always see and aware of, into the source of our doings, our heart in doing them.

it's the passion which drives us to please God, from the inside out not actions which are more outwardly, right? hmm...

what is your passion of life?

Valentine's Day???

2009-02-15T18:26:00.001+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day to You, Jesus! ;p hehe

Selamat kembali!

2009-02-15T17:44:00.004+08:00

it's been a long time since the christmas post last year!

just came back here in Kajang 4 days ago, from nearly 4 weeks holiday in Sarawak. it was a good time, yet it was quite disappointing (for me personally) also. just because i couldn't give much more to others than what i have done. And of course, some plans or thoughts for that holiday which 'tak jadi'!

hmm, guess, tak cukup PASSION in bringing the difference...

anyway, what i gained is a few inches of my 'perut buncit' until seluar pun tak leh muat dah! macam sesak nafas saja...

and things i observed from my friends (ex-schoolmates): they really sampat about boy-girl relationship! which i find so 'muak' that i wanted to run from them. not because that i'm still single but, don't you all have anything else you wanted to know about your friends other than this matter??

THE HIGHEST GOAL IN A HUMAN LIFE IS NOT GETTING MARRIED AND HAVE A FAMILY, OR RATHER HAVING A BUAYA FRIEND / GORILLA FRIEND!

It's a relationship with God!

..."Relationship is what Life is all about"... and the ultimate one is a close relationship with God, with Jesus Christ!

i felt like something being drained away by being in that situation. one of my purposes to go back Sibu is to meet my friends and get in touch with some of them who i wanted to hear more from them, about their life spiritually and physically...

these recent years, i heard some of my friends took up the challenge and accepted Christ Jesus, and my heart 'jumped' in gladness that i wanted to cry already.

Praise God, i managed to know a little bit of some of them, and there are a lot actually i wanted to follow-up with. i got to get some insights from what one of my friends spoke of, insights about her life and herself...

then, i got to know about my cousin's problem in her marriage. yes, things like this are quite common nowadays, still these are what we are suppose to concern about rather than being self-centred all thae way till the very last breath on earth!

a lot more actually happened within my family, and i honestly don't like it because i don't know how to 'fix' it, what to do with them... but, yeah, BUT thanks to Him, the faithful and genius God He is, i have the chance to see and experience bits of what the whole world, everyone and every family is experiencing now, and more to come.

oh, there are so so much! take joy in learning from all these in Him!

God Father, thank You for Your mercy and grace, that we are where we are right now! help us to always remember Your sovereignty over every pieces of our life, and to surrender this life You have given us, to be our responsibility to give the best and be the blessing for many. In Jesus' name, amen!

Mengenal-Mu (GMB-Giving My Best)

2009-02-15T17:30:00.002+08:00

Bila ku buka mataku dan lihat wajah-Mu
ku terkagum
Bila kulihat hidupku dan karya tangan-Mu
ku tersanjung

Kar'na semua yang baik dalam hidupku, itulah karya-Mu
Kau b'ri kesempatan yang baru

Dan ku ingin mengenal-Mu Tuhan
Lebih dalam dari semua yang ku kenal
Tiada kasih yang melebihi-Mu
Ku ada untuk menjadi penyembah-Mu

lagu yang sungguh memberkati! sungguh!
biarlah menjadi doa semua orang untuk mengenal Tuhan, lebih dalam dan lebih dalam lagi!
itulah harta yang paling paling paling indah dan puas bagi setiap manusia!
oh, sangat indah sekali!

a hair cut in Christmas...

2008-12-25T14:28:00.006+08:00

first and foremost... Merry Christmas!

ok... to the story...

initially, i wanted to wait till i return to Sibu only i go get the hair cut, but... tetiba, cannot tahan dah, so after the Christmas service, i went to the Indian barber in Hentian and had my hair done!

a few minutes after i went in the shop, the guy changed the channel, and ... 'wait, this is a Tamil story of Jesus on tv??!', i thought we never get the chance to watch it on Malaysian tv!

ok, to the main point... after the hair cut, like Hoc Mun said, the barber did a little massage on my head, and... 'kruup.. kruup' (the sound of my neck kena 'twist'!)... yeah!, pegang my kepala and pulas my leher!, 'KRUUP... KRUUP...', to the left, and to the right...

'WHAT!, so loud the bunyi [kruup, kruup]'... then, what else, i giggled, wanted to laugh over the [kruup, kruup]... after the [kruup, kruup], i just couldn't help myself but senyum s'orang s'orang and giggled... all the way till i reached Philo! crap, mesti ada orang nampak, 'apasal budak ni senyum senyum happy s'orang diri sambil berjalan??'... kekekkeke

still, the [kruup, kruup] is very nice to have! i must say this is the first time i had my hair cut with [kruup, kruup] and wangian lemon (i think) on my hair... now the kepala macam dah longgar, eh i mean the leher...

oh by the way, while walking pass by the Philo's grave, i took a picture of it, since it's day time now, so it's clearer than the one i posted before... with SE W300i...

and, that's all for now, God bless!

dear Philo... dalam kenangan...

2008-12-18T20:45:00.014+08:00

ini adalah anak anjing yang dikutip oleh si Melvin dekat Sebastian dia (skuter merah) di Hentian. kisah dia bersama kami bermula dari situ...

Mel called me dat afternoon and asked me whether i wanted to keep this puppy, so i agreed. Shao Yi excorted that puppy to Philo and i bathed her... yeah, it's a 'her', a b***h! HAHAHAH...

then, i put her in the besen merah, left it behind the house...

this was the moment caught... well, using my SE W300i phone...

tak tau mau beri nama apa, jadi cuma panggil dia 'veew, veew... duook, duook...' (tak pandai macam mana mau tulis bunyi-bunyian yang dibuat dalam huruf -.-''')...

kemudian, saya sebarangan bagi saja dia 'Philo', memandangkan dia di Philo... so whateva!

Kin Onn asked bout its name before that and just 'hmm... tak tau, belum ada...', then one day, i heard him called the b***h 'buddy', if not mistaken la, that's the one i heard from him, so whateva...

ok, now i wanna talk about makan minum Philo... first 2 days, Philo makan resipi khas Adris! yumm yumm! then the 3rd day, didnt know what else i could give Philo, so another resipi Adris diberi! HAHAHHAHAH...

lepas makan, sure Philo akan berak! and i must say, this b***h really knew where to shit! jauh-jauh tempat sudut, senang untuk saya uruskan (well, except 2 kali)... then, sure dia sangat aktif, mau minta main la konon, jadi main kejar-kejar dan gigit-gigit sama Philo lo!

ini b***h ah, manyak lawak! jalan tak tentu, mau skid tapi selalu jatuh, dengan muka dia yang selamba dan skema... kemudian bangun lagi, kejar kaki... peluk kaki, gigit kaki... besar betul perut dia tau! bulat man! well, itu pun selepas makan.

after i played with Philo, i quickly went inside Philo and left it outside. sien ah! then, the b***h tidur. kalau dia bangun, jerit... itu tanda mau main la tu... (most of the time i left it outside, kekekeke)

(muka selamba Philo... rasa mau cekik dia saja kan!... apuu, ding gii doong!...)

akhirnya, tak sampai seminggu di Philo, tragedi berlaku!

itu pun berlaku tanpa saya ketahui. after receiving Mel's sms only i went out and checked. Mel said Philo kena langgar... mau mati! kena langgar Kancil Jun...

ok, i went out, and saw Melvin and Shao Yi outside the Philo, looking at the b***h.

after a short discussion, Mel said kaki patah, tak leh jalan dah... kemudian, kena suspek 'tercekik'... then, discussed more in depth on how the Kancil hit Philo, and we came to another conclusion that the bitch might have been hit on the stomach... well, 2-3 shits on the floor as the evidence to back up the suspicion.

(the places pointed to are the shits... plus one more in between the hind legs of Philo)

afterwards, Philo rolled to the left and to the right, then to the left again and collapsed! the end!

oh not yet, Mel said it was the first time he saw a dog died in such way. so we laughed! and Philo sempat lagi keluarkan seutas taik kuning dekat burit dia! woaoo!

kemudian, Mel called Jun or Jun called Mel, im not sure, but they sounded like CSI interrogating a suspect on a murder... sampai Jun pun 'chuak'! because she gave Philo Tiger biscuits before Kin Onn and her leaving Philo. so we laughed, again... (o ya, we found the evidence from bakul motosikal Kin Onn: 2 paket kosong biskut Tiger)

so, Mel called his Ah Long E-Lyn to spread this wonderful experience of his, witnessing the bizarre sight before the bitch died... and E-Lyn bagi satu suspek lagi: kecederaan dalaman! and we all pun agreed, 'hmm.. hmm...'

Shao Yi pulak sibuk mau cari koroner, doktor vet dari UKM... only to realised that only UPM has vet... so tak jadi! we just looked at Philo and talked over it and somehow laughed again... we did try to perform CPR, checked her pulse but lawak saja akhirnya... Shao Yi took the pictures of the crime scene, well actually it was not really the crime scene la, crime scene sebenar di luar Philo...

at last, we decided to dispose... so wrapped Philo in newspapers... brought it to behind the Bangi One Stop Home Centre (the one that blocked the scene in front of Philo! mengganggu saja bangunan tu! issh!)...

(sedia mau panggang 'wuduk' dalam surat khabar...)

ok, now we were like a 3-man ninja team in the Naruto world, carrying a newspaper 'balutted' Philo, one 'gayung' and one 'penutup botol biskut berwarna merah', walking out from Philo to dispose the 'keguguran bayi of ... (you know who is the only girl in our team)'... darn, really fun man! suspek giler, sambil ketawa tak tentu pasal!

(this is the 'kubur' of Philo, R.I.P. @ 7.45pm on 15th of December, 2008)

Mel suggested to come back here after one year, and 'gali balik' Philo, take the bones and distribute them and make them into jewelry as a memorial to the b***h named Philo... COOL!

... ... ...

the moral of the story is: LIFE IS SHORT! so, what is the drive for your life to move on?

Comfort from God... for us...

2008-12-10T00:38:00.004+08:00

it's been a month since my last post...

last week, we went for Misi Orang Asli (MOA), the second one for this year! and it was a great experience!

and we saw this smiley on 1st december, monday night, after we prayed and worshipped, till midnight. even though it was a global event, but for us, it was a comfort because of the struggle we were facing that day.

some of us felt the healing surge through their body, and one of them so semangat sampai mau bancuh Milo for all of us! haha...

brothers and sisters, it was a blessing for me to serve with you all! it was my pleasure to serve you too, even though not much. we shared a lot of laughters, good way to soothe the unsettling feelings too.

'lebih tinggi, lebih lebih tinggi...', 'mmek, mmek, mmek, pukul berapa sekarang?!', 'tarian poco-poco', 'peluru berpandu dari hidung!', 'ayam moden', 'sembelit!'... good la, no cirit this time...

Blessed??! It sure did!

2008-11-09T15:57:00.005+08:00

yesterday morning... an unexpected thing happened!

the auntie, our chinese neighbour (right side, and left side is an indian family!, what a cun-cun house Philo is...) suddenly waving her hand over the wall, next to the door...

i didn't notice her calling because i was wearing earphones that moment, but LUCKILY, i was sitting facing the door!

so i stood up and walked towards her, and saw her handing over 2 small plastic bags...

they were ingredients for chrysanthemum tea and 'iced sugar cubes' (dunno wat to call in english, perhaps its rock sugar, wateva) ...

she said, 'you're coughing rite? dry cough? ... here is the tea, for you...' then we talked for a little while...

oh, making me feel 'pai seh', wondering 'crap, my cough so loud till she cannot tahan, n give this teh bunga to shut me up... hehe...' oh, well, i know, really kacau la this batuk...! i hate it!

BUT... thanks God for this little gesture of hers!

make me remember that He is still care for me!

i don want to always say that 'i know... i know... this and that...', but, this, i know, He is... alive... always love me!

thank you... ... ...

...Jesus...

I got tagged??!

2008-11-09T14:42:00.006+08:00

sorry ah... seen this 'tag' before but never go and find the meaning of it so... very dungu... having this question bugging me in my head... "What is this 'tag, tag' thing???!!!" ... aileen punya pasal la...

anyway, i just follow the way others did... so here is the 'tag, tag' thing with questions... weird~~~(-.-)'''

1. What’s your ambition?

erm... ambition... i wan God to be my ambition... it's all about Him, Jesus... semuanya berkisar tentang Dia, berpusing sekeliling Dia, sebab tanpa Dia, saya tidak bererti! ... ujian-t atau ANOVA atau apa-apa jua formula tidak akan dapat menjawab kesignifikan hidup saya, jikalau tiada Yesus dalam hati saya, hidup saya!

I know, I know... this sounds so 'religious'... so 'pious' or so stereotype or whateva! ... but ...

... He is the source of everything; He is the One and Only; Prince of Peace; my Saviour, Redeemer, Healer, Restorer; my righteousness and ... all that i'm not, He is ... and He is, for me!

2. Who is more important to you, Gorilla-friends/Buaya-friends or friends?

friends la...

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?

hmm... to be honest, a couple of times already! that is cerita dulu-dulu... masih mentah dan 'matak', belum masak dan 'billabongok'... sikalang ah, Yesus ah, itu manyak bagut oh, Dia la hidup wa, dan wa picaya sama Dia oh, lu cuba-cuba la, Dia olang manyak sui oh, bukan 'sway'...

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?

confidence... in things i see myself good at, have a certain knowledge about that thing...

5. How many babies you want?

dunno... i don't think i can manage to take of A LOT of kids... cukup-cukup la... Tuhan yang tahu...

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

of course! that is one of His promises!

7. What is your goal for this year?

a change in my life??! firmer foundation in the knowledge of the person of God, Jesus...

8. Do you believe in eternity love?

YES! God is eternal, so is His love is eternal...

9. What’s a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 10)

Christ-centered, sama 'ngam', understanding, inner beauty, honest, bla... bla... bla... no need 10 la... all these not necessary, because God knows... my thoughts can't compare with His... still, i'll talk with Him about it... bincang sama Dia but not as THE priority...

10. What are you really afraid of?

not being in His Big Plan... the plan He laid out in front... being rejected by Him (ministries He intended for me)... make Him angry, sad...

11.What are your bad habits?

a lot man! but still, don't really remember all or even realise them being manifested until a voice convicted me about them...

tend to WASTE a lot of time, that is what i can conclude most of them... slacking off, too! then, i tend to lie whenever the situation getting worse or just want to make myself look 'good' in front of others... take things for granted, many things, even God' grace perhaps...

no need to remind me of these bad side of me... i know i'm not a good person... but i praise God for being all that i need, i'm not... for making me complete in His presence!

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hates you?

yeah, you r wasting your time... i know it's hard to love those unlovables... i know...

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

hmm... i miss those far in the distant... 'jauh di sinun'

14. What does flying means to you?

freedom?? feel the wind?? without any limitation?? wah!

15. What do you crave for the most currently?

a passion in something...

16. Most unexpected gift you received so far and when?

eerrr.... people around me, my mother, my kakak n adik-adik, my father n family... n... Jesus... i hav nothing more to ask for... You r incomparable...

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words:

APUUU!!!!! ... that's enough being said...

18. What have you done to yourself that made you happy?

happy?? hmm... take myself into solitude, with Jesus being there waiting for me, always, always...

19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?

a man closer to God, serving others??? definitely to be a man stronger, firmer, wiser... in God, of cos!

20. A song that meant a lot to you?

... ... ... ... ... it got to be 'the song' in my heart, 'the music' in me... ... ... ... ...

Instructions: Remove 1 question form above and add in your personal question.

Tag 8 other people.

1. Alex Lea S.L.

2. Flora Chong S.M.

3. C. Hoc Mun

4. Au Yong T.S.

5. Yohan C.

6. Julian N.

7. Rachel Ng S.A.

8. Jeremy Leow W.H.

(aiya... wanna tag ppl also susah-susah... tag bloggers ka or just anybody?? haih... wat is this 'tag..tag' thingy?? so sebarang simpan nama saja la)

dunno which question to remove n not sure wat to ask... so... that's it...

saja-saja...

2008-11-02T00:39:00.001+08:00

Seven Places - Awakening

2008-10-27T22:05:00.003+08:00

Jesus Christ, our Savior, who is the propitiation, the satisfaction if you would, for our sins, and not just for our sins, but for the sins of the whole world. The blood of Jesus Christ flowed from seven places.

The first place He bled from - the blood that poured from His head that day. The blood from the thorns in His skull cleanse you from thoughts, the blood that was on His face - hey, He has covered the things that you may not want to face up to because of what you've seen or heard. Know this, the blood flowed for you.

"Yeah, but Jon, you just don't know I've backed away from the Lord, I've turned my back on him."

Well they took a flagellum and they beat His back and blood flowed from His back. It reduced to hamburger meat that day, His back was beaten so brutally. And if you've turned your back on Him and walked away from Him, know this, the blood, the blood that poured from His back, cleanses you; sprinkles you.

"Yeah but Jon, you just don't know what I've done with these hands."

Those hands were pierced, those hands were pinned to the tree, spikes driven through those hands where He bled to cleanse you and cleanse me from the stuff that we've handled that we ought not to have handled, the stuff that we've done that we ought not to have done. Hey, understand. The blood flowed from His hand.

"Yeah but it's stuff that's inside of me Jon, It's just things that I feel in my gut. I have bitterness towards them, and I'm angry with her."

Jesus wants you to know that blood flowed from His side when they thrust that spear into Him when He hung on the cross.

"Feet...I've walked where I ought not to have walked."

Blood flowed from His feet too, when the spike pinned Him through the feet, to the cross of calvary. And now I realize things that I can't face up to, thoughts that I've had that are not right, not good, not true, bitterness inside of me, stuff I've touched that I ought not to touch, places I've gone where I ought not to have walked.

... And I look and I realize the seven-fold flowing of the blood of Christ cleanses me in every area from all sin and I'm free, and I'm forgiven, by the blood.

What can wash away my sin, nothing but the blood of Jesus.

Seven times perfection...seven places...that's what He went through, for me and for you.

Run!!! in freedom... of God!

2008-10-01T01:33:00.004+08:00

Hillsong - Run (from "This Is Our God" album)

You were God from the outset
Powerful and creative
You who saw us here before you called
All the stars and the earth to existence

You are God you are Holy
History is you story
You, who was and is
And who forever will be
God we live for your Glory

So we will run
All together our hearts aflame
With a fire that can't be tamed
Our God all Glory to your name
Jesus

You are God you are freedom
You're alive now within us
You who saw us here before
You conquered the grave
And delivered on the promise

We will run
Our surrender to bring you fame
Our desire that you be praised
Our God all Glory to your name
Jesus

Imbas kembali...

2008-09-30T17:53:00.004+08:00

in previous posts... i wrote about...

1. Faith
2. Name, our being
3. Purpose, in life

and i touched about...

- it is Him, that we have all we have now, today, not by our works ONLY

and i am going to write more about these topics, yea... what i've learned and understood, just wanna share with you.

if you have any thought about these and about what i've put up here, just drop your comments.

God bless and God LOVE you!

The Essence of Life

2008-09-28T19:49:00.002+08:00

I personally like this one, very much! I put it up here, just to share it with you.

Can't believe it turned out to be such 'wonderfully tribal unique??'...

well, I would say, 'this is what I would call a piece of real art..' hehe...

I call it 'The essence of Life'... because it symbolizes the 'life', somehow...

the bottom layer=ground, earth

the upper layer=the water

then only the sprout of 'life' coming forth...

Proverbs 4:23 "Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it spring the issues of life" (Gideon Bible)

Proverbs 4:23 "Watch over your heart with all diligence, for out of it are the sources of life" (The Scriptures)

Proverbs 4:23 "Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life" (New Living Translation)

Amsal 4:23 "Jagalah hatimu dengan segala kewaspadaan, karena dari situlah terpancar kehidupan" (Indonesian bible)

now, where does our heart lie on? is it on the things we see with our physical eyes? or on the one that is invisible to our physical eyes, yet is very real, the only source of life itself, Jesus?

ok, many will say, here comes the 'christian' and 'Jesus' and 'God' thingy again... bla.. bla.. bla..

one said this, 'But I admit that I follow the Way, which they call a cult. I worship the God of our ancestors, and I firmly believe the Jewish law and everything written in the prophets. Because of this, I always try to maintain a clear conscience before God and all people."

in another version, he said, 'And this I confess to you, that according to the Way which they call a sect, so I worship the Elohim of my fathers, believing all that has been written in the Torah and in the Prophets, having an expectation in Elohim, which they themselves also wait for, that there is to be a resurrection of the dead, both of the righteous and the unrighteous. And in this I exercise myself to have a clear conscience toward Elohim and men always.'

*Elohim means God in hebrew

he didn't say, 'I follow this religion' or 'I follow the christianity or christian' (or any other known religions)... but he simply said 'the Way', which many called 'a cult' or 'a sect'...

then, what is 'the Way' he was talking about?

we found someone said this, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me.'...!!!

well, that 'someone' is Jesus!

and the person who mentioned 'the Way' met Jesus, and that encounter had totally transformed the rest of his life... 180 degree change!

--right believing produces right living--

"On which ground do we sow life?"

"What is our 'earth' and 'water' to produce the tree of life which produces 'delicious everlasting fruits'?"

Fazril...

2008-09-28T19:38:00.000+08:00

This is one of my 'creations'... hehe... his name is 'Fazril', well tentatively ;p

Haven't really 'polish' him yet, so that's all he has now...

macam mana?

Di Setiap Nafasku... by True Worshippers

2008-09-15T23:05:00.001+08:00

Aku milikMu
Ku berserah kepadaMu
Seluruh hidupku
Kau genggam dalam tanganMu

Ini hatiku hanya untukMu
Ini jiwaku hanya bagiMu

Tuhan Kau Allahku, Bapa dan Rajaku
Tak henti di setiap nafasku
Ku kan menyembahMu s'lalu

Ku bawa hidupku ke atas mezbahMu
Tak henti di setiap langkahku
Ku kan mengikutiMu selamanya

Mating season!! Musim mengawan!! WooHoo! ;p

2008-09-11T02:04:00.001+08:00

yes! Now is the time! The time has finally come!!!

Time to mate!... waarggh!!!

Only a moment ago i decided to call this time as a mating season!

I came to realization the moment I saw those cockroaches in the toilet! And I just wonderred, how many times already i saw the cockroaches in Philo??!!! Just in this few days, perhaps since last week!

Creepy! Especially those with well developed wings, capable of flying here and there... and who knows, there might be a chance when one flying right into your mouth... while you YAWNNNNN....

eewwww... feeling uneasy in my mouth already!... really 'phobia' to FLYING cockroach!

Just now, wanted to go to take bath. FORTUNATELY i noticed a cockroach on the wall (in the toilet). So, with my towel on, i quickly transformed into the Roach-Buster! with Baygon CC Cockroach Control in my hand!

YES, it FLEW!

out from the toilet, and after the 2nd spray, flew straight to my room! c**p!

Oh well, of course, er hem... I lost my composure during the task! -.-'''

After a while, i went to the toilet again. Guess what? a surprise!

'Romeo' and 'Juliet' having *** next to the toilet bowl!

To my surprise, 'this is a rare scene!', so I told Hoc Mun and he quickly grabbed his Sony Alpha, wanting to SHOOT them till death!... no, it's his camera!

with the flashes going on in the toilet, the 'couple' didn't seem to be bothered by Hoc Mun! while I was waiting for the photo session to end... thinking 'you won't be able to run from me with your butts sticked together! HAHAHA'

by the way, if you want the HOT pictures of 'Romeo' and 'Juliet', caught in real time... they are with Hoc Mun, feel free to check his blog, I bet he will sure to post those pictures on his blog!

After that, i changed my profession, and became the Ultimate Crime Scene Investigator (UCSI) and took a few pictures of the crime scenes...

presenting...

'Romeo' and 'Juliet'...

in close-up...

the crime scene...

and that's the story bout the legend of 'Romeo and Juliet' in the cockroaches' world... with a tragedy!

with one still on the loose, not knowing its' whereabout...

I decided to sleep in the living room, for tonight...

HAHAHA!!!

Whatever!!!

open wound

2008-09-09T17:02:00.001+08:00

kena bakar sampai kulit pun hampir cacat

lepas tu, kena lagi pisau, tak tahu siapa yang pegang sebarangan

tapi, rasa sakit itu hampir tidak dikesan, kerana luka terbakar yang teruk sampai saraf-saraf sakit pun rosak...

apa nak buat... terpaksa tahan kecacatan ini lo...

haih...

yo... what's up...

2008-09-09T16:56:00.000+08:00

yo...

i am Tompok...

Food for thought...

2008-09-09T16:40:00.001+08:00

Deuteronomy 8:17-18

... You may say to yourself, "My power and the strength of my hands have produced this wealth for me." But remember the LORD your God, for it is He who gives you the ability to produce wealth, and so confirms His covenant, which He swore to your forefathers, as it is today. ...

Hillsong - Stronger (This is Our God-2008)

2008-09-08T01:30:00.000+08:00

VERSE 1:
There is Love
That came for us
Humbled to a sinner’s cross
You broke my shame and sinfulness
You rose again victorious

VERSE 2:
Faithfulness none can deny
Through the storm
And through the fire
There is truth that sets me free
Jesus Christ who lives in me

CHORUS:
You are stronger
You are stronger
Sin is broken
You have saved me
It is written
Christ is risen
Jesus You are Lord of all

VERSE 3:
No beginning and no end
You’re my hope and my defence
You came to seek and save the lost
You paid it all upon the cross

BRIDGE:
So let Your Name be lifted higher
Be lifted higher
Be lifted higher

Warrgh~~~!!!!!!...

2008-09-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

shriekkk!!!!!!!!!!!!

what the heck!

Sadako's eye!

cheng cheng cheng... creepy!

She is looking at you, man!