today... looking at the kindergarten picture on FB, suddenly i thought of my cousin when he was still alive...
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perhaps i miss him... even though we didnt really spend much time together, especially after he moved out from our house during secondary school, i remember the times when we were still young, and such a kiddo...
there was a time when we competed with each other to be the first to wake up and made ready for school, primary school... finished writing vocabulary even before teacher asked us to...
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it has been two years since the last time i saw him, before he was gone...
i still cannot make up my mind that he is actually gone! as if he was still somewhere outside...
the biggest shock is, he passed away before his brother did (who was in the hospital due to suspected drug overdose in KL) ! when he went back Sarawak that time, he was just fine! we thought his brother would go first, never expect he died in Sibu Hospital...
DOUBLE shock for us!
even though we are not so so close...
BUT i miss them, especially the younger one of them, same age with me and grew up together...
