Joshua 24:12 I sent the hornet ahead of you, which drove them out before you - also the two Amorite kings. You did not do it with your own sword and bow.
everything that being said and promoted on the tv screen, newspapers, magazines and radio... sounds great, promising and wonderful, towards a nation which is for all and not a certain party, without discrimination and favouritism...
is it possible, seeing the condition now?
is it true?
can be trusted or not??
somehow i do hope that it is!
but things around us just turn out to be not agreeable with this "1 Malaysia"...
Hebrews 4:14-16 (Ibrani 4:14-16) Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess.
For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are-yet was without sin.
Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
knowing that Jesus is able to sympathize, He is a person with all the emotions and feelings, with a character, so much alive than we can ever imagine... don't you think that we need this Person? whenever we are sad... He knows whenever we are happy... He knows whenever we are angry... He knows whenever we feel timid... He knows whenever we are scared... He knows whenever we are hurt, disappointed by people and circumstances... He knows and every little things that happen in our life, He knows and He understands it all!
even though He is invisible, yet He is REAL... the moment we meet Him, sitting by His laps quietly, resting in His embrace... you'll know! I know! this is not crazy, it's not being lunatic... it's the greatest RELATIONSHIP of all! admit it, you and I long to have a true and real and promising relationship, one that you and I will definitely feel comfortable, secured... and it's just a heart away and a word apart... "Jesus, I need you and I receive Your love, healing and forgiveness. Amin"
Romans 10:1-10 (Roma 10:1-10) Brothers, my heart's desire and prayer to God for the Israelites is that they may be saved.
For I can testify about them that they are zealous for God, but their zeal is not based on knowledge. Since they did not know the righteousness that comes from God and sought to establish their own, they did not submit to God's righteousness.
Christ is the end of the law so that there may be righteousness for everyone who believes. Moses describes in this way the righteousness that is by the law: "The man who does these things will live by them."
But the righteousness that is by faith says: "Do not say in your heart, 'Who will ascend into heaven?' " (that is, to bring Christ down) "or 'Who will descend into the deep?' " (that is, to bring Christ up from the dead).
But what does it say? "The word is near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart," that is, the word of faith we are proclaiming: That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved.
--{ bible verses taken from New International Version (NIV) }--
it is not about being a GOOD person... doing GOOD deeds ONLY... this life has more in store for everyone of us, don't you agree with me?
at times, i am sure we do feel 'we deserve more than this...' ... 'there must be more than all these...' ... 'this is not the place i belong to...' ... 'i can be greater than this...' ... 'there must be a better place out there...' ... 'i think i have a very solid reason to live in this world...' and bla bla bla...
have ever consider that the life itself is not a cycle of repetition? i mean... YOU are YOU, I am I and HE is HE or SHE is SHE... uniquely individual living in different times, generations and places... no one is the same as you and me before we are born and after we are dead!
it is just down grading the very value of our identity and meaning of life itself if we are to agree with the idea which says, 'after this life cycle, in the next one, you will become this or that, depending on how well or bad you perform now...'
you and me are uniquely made as an individual masterpiece and so are very valueable, just like the rare stones such as diamonds, emeralds, rubies etc being in small quatity in comparison to other minerals, have higher value than the rest of them!
i can no longer hiding in the shell... standing at the corner... being a spectator... being an audience to the scene of the reality...
knowing the Way, the Truth and the Light... called to be a peacemaker... to bring hope... reconciliation in relationships... yet...
why is this happening? how am i going to break through this veil covering me...
there is no use in FEELING it, KNOWING it but do not ACT to make a change about it...
where are the children of God? where are you? WHERE AM I? hiding? keep quiet, chose to be a mute, a deaf and blind?
''please don't talk about it... i don't want to hear it anymore... it's the norm, it happens everyday... so what? ... what do i care so much about it?... you talk so loud, you do la!?... other people also don't do, why do i need to move my ass of my comfy bed?..." ATTITUDE???!
Roma 8:18-22 (Rome chapter 8 verse 18 to 22) Sebab dengan sangat rindu seluruh makhluk menantikan saat anak-anak Allah dinyatakan. Karena seluruh makhluk telah ditaklukkan kepada kesia-siaan, bukan oleh kehendaknya sendiri, tetapi oleh kehendak Dia, yang telah menaklukkannya, tetapi dalalm pengharapan, karena makhluk itu sendiri juga akan dimerdekakan dari perbudakan kebinasaan dan masuk ke dalam kemerdekaan kemuliaan anak-anak Allah. Sebab kita tahu, bahwa sekarang segala makhluk sama-sama mengeluh dan sama-sama merasa sakit bersalin.
Amos 8:11 (Amos chapter 8 verse 11) "Sesungguhnya, waktu akan datang," demikianlah firman Tuhan ALLAH, "Aku akan mengirimkan kelaparan ke negeri ini, bukan kelaparan akan makanan dan bukan kehausan akan air, melainkan akan mendengarkan firman TUHAN. ..."
Yesaya 58:6-12 (Isaiah chapter 58 verse 6 to 12) Bukan! Berpuasa yang Kukehendaki, ialah supaya engkau membuka belenggu-belenggu kelaliman, dan melepaskan tali-tali kuk, supaya engkau memerdekakan orang yang teraniaya dan mematahkan setiap kuk, supaya engkau memecah-mecah rotimu bagi orang yang lapar dan membawa ke rumahmu orang miskin yang tak punya rumah, dan apabila engkau memberi dia pakaian dan tidak menyembunyikan diri terhadap saudaramu sendiri!
Pada waktu itulah terangmu akan merekah seperti fajar dan lukamu akan pulih dengan segera; kebenaran menjadi barisan depanmu dan kemuliaan TUHAN barisan belakangmu.
Pada waktu itulah engkau akan memanggil dan TUHAN akan menjawab, engkau akan berteriak minta tolong dan Ia akan berkata: Ini Aku! Apabila engkau tidak lagi mengenakan kuk kepada sesamamu dan tidak lagi menunjuk-nunjuk orang dengan jari dan memfitnah, apabila engkau menyerahkan kepada orang lapar apa yang kauinginkan sendiri dan memuaskan hati orang tertindas maka terangmu akan terbit dalam gelap dan kegelapanmu akan seperti rembang tengah hari.
TUHAN akan menuntun engkau senantiasa dan akan memuaskan hatimu di tanah yang kering, dan akan membaharui kekuatanmu; engkau akan seperti taman yang diairi dengan baik dan seperti mata air yang tidak pernah mengecewakan.
Engkau akan membangun reruntuhan yang sudah berabad-abad, dan akan memperbaiki dasar yang diletakkan oleh banyak keturunan. Engkau akan disebut "yang memperbaiki tembok yang tembus", "yang membetulkan jalan supaya tempat itu dapat dihuni".
--(the bible verses stated are taken from Alkitab Bahasa Indonesia Terjemahan Baru)--
we knew... we have read and listened to it and about it over and over again... BUT... how does it impact our lives? do we let the Word speak to us and root in our heart to bring forth the fruits? or just take it as the wind blowing through our hair??
at this moment, i am sitting in the International Christian Mission office, located at Jalan Medan Pasar, near the Petaling Street and Central Market a.k.a. Pasar Seni...
not really working, yet... it's the 2 week trial till the end of this month.
so... what am i doing here, as you might think? becoming a missionary? nope, not really but just working in a office, (duh...)... in charge of newsletter and praise and prayer letter and stuffs... so consider it a ministry? that's what they said... but for me, hmm... i work dulu lah...
oh, such a dilemma! work or continue... or doing other things (even so, what can i do if not cari duit makan sara diri dan bantu keluarga? bongok betul la soalan nih... ish ish ish... well...)
yea, i do have the tendency to give up, withdraw from doing all the things which are being laid in front of me and stay in a room! wao! jadi freaky zombie! (oh ya, all are welcomed to play the Plants vs Zombies by Popcap!)
ok, if God wills, then i might already have a place here, in this ICM, though i always have the fear of not being able to keep up with the demands of the work and the expectations from the boss.
oh, by the end of this month, we, fellows of Bethel are going to have internet connection! it's streamyx... not p1wimax... apa-apa saja la...
and i might move out from kajang to somewhere near KL! if that's His will! oh, rasa tak sanggup tinggalkan! i wanted to keep up with them in persons, those i wanted to always share and grow together, and witness their life, tak sanggup mahu lepaskan mereka!
and perhaps pecel lele! those who don't know, just drop by Shakers (a mamak restaurant) at hentian kajang. pecel will only be available from 1pm till 10pm daily except friday or otherwise they cuti-cuti sendiri...
i will need to learn to do video clips, webpages, more effective ways in doing newsletter and designing and perhaps adobe photoshop too! wahai otak ku yang dah karat, masanya untuk kau digilap dan di'overload'kan...
so i came to this Merdeka Centre in Bangi, in the Bangi Warta Bintang area, and filled up a form and got interviewed informally, and that's it. i am now an interviewer, well, part-timely.
and so, working there was so so terrible! first because of the 'waking up early and work till 6 or 7pm' routine... plus calling to get respondents to do the questionaires... wargh... work my mouth out more than i usually do is not me wei...
honestly, the thought of quiting was quickly to surface and pushing and waiting to explode in my head!... yea... i wanna run and hide...
after a while, it is kinda fun actually. because some of the respondents are quite vocal in expressing their opinions about the current issues, some of them (elderly) are cute in keep telling 'i don't know about this and that... bla bla bla...' then laugh...
some of the interviewers seriously are funny in the way they persuading people to accept the interviews, holding them to finish till the last question...
well... this tele-interviewer thingy... i guess i am going to do it for about 3 months or until i got another job.
... WORK ... whatever, just do to gain different experiences and be aware that God is truly wanting to shape and prepare us through these experiences. i need to hold on to the knowledge that You, Jesus is always working with me, if not, it will all seems meaningless, truly meaningless till can be suicidal!
ok, about the internet connection... thinking of taking P1WiMax but for now, the 'line' or whatever, is still not stable in hentian kajang area, so thinking of just taking the stremyx since the cable guy came one day, but unfortunately nobody at home! so he left...
the decision? don't know... ok la, that's all la, for this post!
well, we went to telekom, applying to install streamyx at Bethel (our place in hentian). after one month, still tarak orang datang install, apa nih!?
when we called to ask about it, they said, 'no enough cable... bla bla bla... hentian kajang punya kabel streamyx sudah penuh... bla bla bla...'
HUH??! apa maksud?
aiyo...
prat time as telesurveyer (?) will start on monday... just do while waiting for other opportunities, whatever...
as for convo photos and videos, hmm, belum ada banyak masa untuk upload. there are still a lot more photos out there which i haven't collect from... so, mr. Au Yong, tunggu la...
