i like this video...

Selepas Tsunami (After the Tsunami) from Pusat KOMAS on Vimeo.

somehow, i feel like it's a season of awakening through the explosion of information & communication technology, an element which was promoted by the government since 90s perhaps??

this kind of information, videos, reports, commentaries, investigations were not made known those days, but now emerging through world wide web and many social networking applications, reaching to more and more people...

yes, somehow i find it hard to straight buy into all stuffs channeled because it came out of nowhere, well at least to me, and it's about politics, the game of orang-orang besar here... yet, there is no smoke without fire right? and i do think that it is sooner or later that the "turning point" of Malaysia is about to happen...

i have been disconnected from my nation all this while, it's no more room for self but to care more about others... it's time to think and act on the course of owning this nation...

let myself to be educated and share what i've received to others

now... a song recommended by me :)

We'll walk the land (streets) with hearts of fire
And every step will be a prayer
Hope is rising, new day dawning
The sound of singing fills the air

Two thousand years and still the flame
Is burning bright across the land
Hearts are waiting, longing, aching
For awakening once again

Let the flame burn brighter in the heart of the darkness
Turning night to glorious day
Let the song grow louder as our love grows stronger
Let it shine
Let it shine

We'll walk the truth, speak out the love
In Jesus' name we shall be strong
To lift the fallen, to save the children
To flood the nation with Your song

Let the flame burn brighter in the heart of the darkness
Turning night to glorious day
Let the song grow louder as our love grows stronger
Let it shine
Let it shine
(repeats)


it was sung at the closing of National Conference 2010 "Risk It U Turn" on Saturday... very semangat, like a soldier...

the worst national song ever! (sorry to say but it's true)

everyone! have you ever heard the song about Malaysia's Bunga Raya this year???
it was made for Tahun Jubilee Bunga Kebangsaan Malaysia (something like that)... guess what it is being played in rapidKL buses!!! over and over and over till it stuck in your head!

ARRGHHH~~~!

it is ANNOYING... to the max! the whole song is not patriotic and it is like composed by a non musician, simply throw in the musical notes, just to give a tune to the lyrics... sorry to say, but it's 'yucksss' for me to listen to it...

tune is out, lyric is 'blah', the video is 'so so, typical RTM videos'... guess they run out of ideas???

unlike 'Sejahtera Malaysia' and 'KeranaMu Malaysia' etc...

Risk It... U-Turn...

National Conference 2010, organized by Fellowship of Evangelical Students (FES) at Bayu Resort Port Dickson, from 29nov till 4dec was a blast! BOOOMMM!


why??

AMAZING PEOPLE...

WONDERFUL STORIES...

YOU'LL-NEVER-GO-HUNGRY MEALS...

ELECTRIFYING SPEECHES...

AWESOME GOD!!!

i guess i will need a day or two to write for my journal!!! from the first day till the last moment there!

God of second chances...
God who revives...
God who look pass handicaps and lead the person to eternal destiny...

God of silence yet full of energy and strong presence...
God who is faithful even though we failed many times!!!

God... the BIGGEST RISK TAKER!

this generation of young people, called to be the voice of the LORD in this nation, against the current world full of racism, injustice, compromise, degraded morale...
becoming the prophets, to profess God's standards to restore and reconcile relationships, between men and between men to God...

the Benjamin Generation...

we went through the second letter of Apostle Paul to Timothy... we looked at the prophet Ezekiel... the prophet Jeremiah... we look at GOD'S HEART for this nation, this generation...

i sense the time is soon... the one which i dreamed of 2 or 3 years ago...
though it might not be drastic and dramatic... hmm... perhaps it might be...!

ok... SELAH, a moment of pause...

fuuh~~~ too many things to write that it's all over the place... i do need a day to write them!



Tega tawai, TUHAN...

setelah sekian lama...

after a looooooonng time... my gosh! it's like i've abandon my writings, both blog (though initially, i meant it for fun and small sharings only) and MY JOURNAL!!!

oh my... too much... too many things happened since my last post in my journal...
this year's journal notes started with a few sentences, recording some experiences... and that's all, not even truly write down what i wanted to write, you know, what's in my mind, what's in store...

ok... i need a mountain to climb for solitary time...

reflection...

recalling...

remembering...

reassurance...

searching...

and falling in love again... and again... and again...

kenangan...

today... looking at the kindergarten picture on FB, suddenly i thought of my cousin when he was still alive...

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perhaps i miss him... even though we didnt really spend much time together, especially after he moved out from our house during secondary school, i remember the times when we were still young, and such a kiddo...

there was a time when we competed with each other to be the first to wake up and made ready for school, primary school... finished writing vocabulary even before teacher asked us to...

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it has been two years since the last time i saw him, before he was gone...

i still cannot make up my mind that he is actually gone! as if he was still somewhere outside...

the biggest shock is, he passed away before his brother did (who was in the hospital due to suspected drug overdose in KL) ! when he went back Sarawak that time, he was just fine! we thought his brother would go first, never expect he died in Sibu Hospital...

DOUBLE shock for us!

even though we are not so so close...

BUT i miss them, especially the younger one of them, same age with me and grew up together...

untitled...

today is 30th of August 2010...
it's Monday...

tomorrow is holiday, Hari Merdeka...
but not all will be on holiday, still need to work...

hmm... September... October... November... December...
and we will have Year 2011...

time flies?

WAO~~~!

mata pun membesar... telinga lagi berjaga-jaga...

WALAO!!!

something happened while i was in the rapidKL u40 to KL this morning! and it happened next to my seat!

there the bus was getting filled up along the journey, and there was a man with a bag sitting next to me, seemed like it was the last empty seat available...

orite, now, the bus reached batu 9 (if not mistaken, too many batu(s) around, dunno where and when i'm at which batu... hmm... so whatever, batu 9 la). there was an old man (around 45-55 years old, gendut, perut buncit, rambut pendek seperti botak, and the baju macam ada sejenis bau) squeezing from front to the back and sat on the platform in between the back seats.

and i am sure that the guy and the old man didn't know each other.

just, out of nowhere, i sensed something was going on besides me! the old man's hand was on the guy's lap! he was talking once a while to him, while patting and rubbing that guy's lap!

"what is that??!' i was thinking, continue to observe...

then, his hand was like moving closer and closer to that part, and he touched it! yet, that guy macam tak kisah saja!!!

i heard the old man said, '... besar oh... sangat besar...'
GOSH!!! WHAT THE HECK is he doing there??!

once a while that guy lean forward and the old man whispered things to him.

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hmm... itu la ceritanya... i guess sama-sama mau kot... kalau tidak, pasti that guy menolak la, rather than biar saja dia meraba sana sini, menepuk dan akhirnya sentuh 'duud'...

i remember one night, not long before that happening, he was in the same bus with me! and i was sitting next to him! GOSH... good thing he didnt meraba-raba me!

but...

he did asked me, 'adik, pi mane?... kajang ke?'

WAH~~~!!!

mengeracau...

is it just me or suddenly a lot of people are against Israel?

it's like people going crazy... cut here and there, march here and there, shout here and there, benci here and there, kawad kiri kanan kiri...

oh, Israel... a small nation... and it's like the whole world is going to swallow you up...


but the amazing and wonderful thing is... Israel is not going to vanish... some mysteries people just couldn't understand...

Psalms 119:129-136

Psalms 119:129-136 (The Message)

Every word you give me is a miracle word—
how could I help but obey?

Break open your words, let the light shine out,
let ordinary people see the meaning.

Mouth open and panting,
I wanted your commands more than anything.

Turn my way, look kindly on me,
as you always do to those who personally love you.

Steady my steps with your Word of promise
so nothing malign gets the better of me.

Rescue me from the grip of bad men and women
so I can live life your way.

Smile on me, your servant;
teach me the right way to live.

I cry rivers of tears
because nobody's living by your book!



here is another version of the verses...


Psalms 119:129-136 (Amplified Bible)

¹²⁹Your testimonies are wonderful [far exceeding anything conceived by man]; therefore my [penitent] self keeps them [hearing, receiving, loving, and obeying them].

¹³⁰The entrance and unfolding of Your words give light; their unfolding gives understanding (discernment and comprehension) to the simple.

¹³¹I opened my mouth and panted [with eager desire], for I longed for Your commandments.

¹³²Look upon me, be merciful unto me, and show me favor, as is Your way to those who love Your name.

¹³³Establish my steps and direct them by [means of] Your word; let not any iniquity have dominion over me.

¹³⁴Deliver me from the oppression of man; so will I keep Your precepts [hearing, receiving, loving, and obeying them].

¹³⁵Make Your face shine [with pleasure] upon Your servant, and teach me Your statutes.

¹³⁶Streams of water run down my eyes, because men do not keep Your law [they hear it not, nor receive it, love it, or obey it].

Psalms 119 is very, how to say, good la... really lack of words...
read it out last Sunday evening... hmm, the longest chapter in the Bible eh...

there are many kept me thinking and 'menikmati ayat-ayatnya'... wonderful...
then Psalms 119:130 is the one i keep thinking till now...

unfolding of His Words... gives light... gives understanding to the simple... so called the rhema word... transforming our thoughts, thinking patterns, renewing & restoring our mind from the 'lies' we consciously & unconsciously absorb throughout the life, the lies of the world...
what a joy to know the One God, His Words give the excitement and wonders in heart of the listeners...

hey mates, there's only one Truth here, get on hold of it tightly, never lose it!
He said "I am the Truth, the Way and the Life..."

you know, He=Yeshua haMesshiach







Abbah, God of the universe
watching all things happening under the sky, among the people
all things happen with Your divine permission, according to Your will...
everything and everyone is moving around You, as the centre. it's all about You...
Faithful God, keeping Your promises even till today, You never fail... even though our mind cannot fathom Your ways, we wanna trust in Your will...

who are we to complain about what people call bad lucks, accidents, woes... often we want good things, 'good lucks' from You, why not we also accept the 'bad things' from You, with contentment?
we sigh upon looking at those news, happenings around us... murders, rapes, corruptions, frauds, deaths, disasters, climate changes... politics...? injustice...? foolishness...?...homosexuality... ah... too much... sigh~~

the world is corrupted... worse and worse... seems like there is no HOPE everywhere, no TRUTH can be found... nowhere is safe so it seems! many got drifted by the current of the world, overlooked the lifeline which has been thrown down to them from above the heavens...
"we cannot do a thing to change... it's like that... what to do... i know, don't talk about these anymore... shhhhh..."

Your Kingdom is near, the everlasting Kingdom of Yours...
and it's time now for people to be awaken from deep sleep, eyes be opened to see, ears to hear the Truth. a new heart to understand...
"TODAY, if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion..."
Help us, LORD to speak forth for You... for we know much of our own words are not matched with Your one true Word, because You know everyone the best. everyone created in You, through You, for You...

give us the understanding to read Your Words, that we may grow stronger each day, renewed every morning... that there's a joy and peace surpasses our own understanding, even in the storms of life... for we know better and better who You are, how tender and sweet You are, how strict and just You are... everything is about You... oh, Your Words i crave in the deepest of my being...

Your Words is LIFE! the light i need! the slumber of assurance, the confidence to live...

God of Mercy, Loving Abbah, Wonderful Jesus, Gentle Spirit... :) unfolding Your Words so that many lives see the light... so that the simple understands... life will never be the same again! let the knowledge of the LORD flood the earth...

honour and glory is to You. the authority is Yours. Your Kingdom is forever.
thank You for the gift You give
thank You for being faithful
thank You for the Truth you unveiled
thank You...

in Yeshua's super duper name, we pray, amen...

food for thought...

1 Timothy 6:3-10 (NIV)

³If anyone teaches false doctrines and does not agree to the sound instruction of our Lord Jesus Christ and to godly teaching,

⁴he is conceited and understands nothing. He has an unhealthy interest in controversies and quarrels about words that result in envy, strife, malicious talk, evil suspicions

⁵and constant friction between men of corrupt mind, who have been robbed of the truth and who think that godliness is a means to financial gain.

⁶But godliness with contentment is great gain.

⁷For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it.

⁸But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that.

⁹People who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge men into ruin and destruction.

¹⁰For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.

stories continue... RapidKL u40...

oh well... there are a lot of stories to tell and it's fun to watch the people around!
a lot of 'kerenah' and 'gelagat'... the facial expressions, the talks, the body languages etc...

and, yea it takes averagely 3 hours for me to travel back and forth Kajang-KL every weekday.
many of the times, i sleep... if im awake, woohoo... interesting things can be observed!

i ah, actually have some of the things i wanted to post up here a few months ago, but tak jadi, malas la, like too many things... like usual, don't know where to start... hmm...

orite, i met 'orang gila' in the bus before, 'orang mabuk', 'couple tak senang hati', 'couple jiwang', 'orang muntah', 'orang tidur' ... eheheh... many kinds... FUN! i'm 'orang tidur', until the bus stopped at the terminal and the driver called me, i was like 'gosh! sleep like bab1, dah sampai pun tak sedar!...'

there was one time, i got on the bus, then a guy sat a row in front of me. after that, came a man sitting across that guy's seat. that man took out his phone, called "hallo... hallo... bla bla bla", hung up. he then talking to himself, with his hand gestures...

the earlier guy looked at him with 'what is dat man doing??!~~~ orang gila ka nih?' face... and i was looking at them too. that guy then turned to me with his face and i smiled back at him, amused with them.

next, came a big guy sitting besides me, took out his gadgets, busy playing games, tilting his phone side to side, up and down... not long after that the bus was nearly filled.

during stops, more people coming in, until one lady (quite short, quite gempal) squeezed in from front to the back, just to sit in between the back seats which is 'seatless', knowing that nobody would sacrifice his/her precious butts to sit on the 'dirty' platform. so she comfortably sit there, "ah, good seat... no need to stand... yesh~~~"

the bus was crowded... oh yea, i remembered, that night was a special night for Indians, because i saw those Indians wearing their best around KL area as well as those in the bus, but i don't know what was it...

and... there was a 'girl', i say a 'girl' la, can't really judge her age from her look, but from the way she dresses, 20-30 years old punya la... magically, she sat next to the 'presumably gila' man. wow~~~

as the bus moved along, not long after that, that girl searched something in her bag. TADAA~~~ a NAIL CLIPPER!... so she clipped and clipped and clipped her finger nails while the bus swaying side to side... 'click.... click... fuuuh~~~' there she goes...

the big guy sitting next to me (also next to that 'seatless' lady), suddenly 'hmmpphhh~~~' (breathing out throught his nostril like melepaskan angin ribut taufan, well at least to that lady...) and the lady quickly 'terase' angin ribut taufan hit her left shoulder and face, i suppose, that she turned her head to 'jeling' her 'WOI! your nafas don't blow here ah! i'm clean ok, fatty' eyes... then she 'swept' her shoulder and made the 'displeasing' sound, 'TSSSK!', sengaja for him to notice

but, too bad, he was too into the game, he didn't notice. he was wearing earphones too! ahahah...
then, for the second time, the lady, same reaction but this time, her composure changed, really like tak puas hati, sit also like tauke or gangster 'u... wanna fight ah? huh! i'm the big boss here, know!' style... taking out a 'minyak angin' from her bag, vigorously and 'kejam'ly sapu the 'minyak cap kapak' onto her 'lobang hidung' and 'kawasan-kawasan yang sewaktu dengannya'...

the big guy still on his game... quietly tilting the phone...

another scene, one Indian man standing next to his friend's seat. it was very crowded. but there was another man/lady (forgot already) squeezed in between that Indian man and the other unknown human being. so rase tak senang, the Indian man showed his 'i tak senang ur body sapu'ing my body like dat, u know...' look, and he kinda like complained to his friend in Tamil, i think it's Tamil la...

ok, that's about all in one trip!

humans... ahhh~~~ very interesting creatures! they are very amusing! it's true many who we don't feel like 'loving' them, thinking 'how to love that fella??! ... not worth my love...', 'hey, i don't like you, look at your face also i tak suke...'

haih... SIGH~~~... thinking so superior than other people... oh my, corrupted relationships! many are looking for relationships which are genuine, comfortable, reliable, trustworthy, with LOVE, some wants 'i feel good', 'what can i gain from this?' kind of relationships...

LOVE in Hebrew, 'ahava', consists of two words, 'I' and 'give'. Love means 'I give...', not 'you give me, so i feel better, i feel loved, i feel important, i feel worthy, and i deserve it bla bla bla - it's all about ME'!

God is LOVE... that's what the Scriptures tell us, that's what the people say, that's what we hear... 'we ought to love... not hate...', 'we have to love... even our enemies', talking about love this and love that, showing love to him, her, to the world, yada yada yada... but how far do we understand the LOVE?

how deep?
how high?
how long?
how wide?

the most precious of God, He gave to us, to redeem the relationships, God to the people, people to people... the Gift He gave, Jesus Christ, 'dabao' with forgiveness, healing, freedom, wealth, deliverance, joy, health, peace, mercy, salvation, life... it's a gift... G.. I.. F.. T.. no string attached..
that is how God loves, He gives... like a father gives the best to his children, what more to God!

unlike humans, God doesn't measure or judge first our deeds, our thoughts, our words, our self before He wants to accept and love us??! NO...

Thank God! Praise God, oh my soul for you have found such a Person, rather, you have been found by that Wonderful Person... He isn't far high above the sky in the universe, He is close to you heart, waiting to have fellowship with you in your private room, no matter how messy your room is! ... Thank You... Jesus... the promised Saviour of God...

I will run to the hiding place
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I will run to the hiding place
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Draw me ever closer to look upon Your face
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I will run to the hiding place
...


You are my hiding place
my comfort, my refuge, my rest, my shield, my joy, my strength

what a wonderful Sunday...

yesterday, we went to Zoe Christian Fellowship for ICM work! ahahha, yea 'working' on weekend.

the highlight was during my way back to Kajang...
woohoo! got on the bus (Pasar Seni LRT station) around 2.30pm! (we left the church at about 1.45pm...)

here's a story, last 2 weeks, we had the same work at different church. about the same time we left and reached KL central, BUT since i was there, i decided to take the commuter back to Kajang, a silly thought! dat time, it was about 2.30pm i think... after getting down to the platform, how regretted i was, it was packed with people! twice the trains were sardine-packed, i gave up to squeeze in until the third one came and i got on. it was 4.30pm!

and so, this time wanted to be smart, i took the LRT to Pasar Seni, "I dont wanna take KTM... better take RapidKL u40 back to Kajang, faster and no nid to main rugby with people..."

fuuh~~~ everything was good! a few people only in the bus, and it was comfortable, with cool chilling air-con... was sitting at the back seat... took out my jacket and wore it, ready to sleep...

ah~~~ cool... the traffic was kinda jammed... but it's fine with me...

then in my sleep, someone knocked on the window screen next to me. i noticed everyone's gone! RAPTURE! nah~~~ they wanna switch bus... weird... and i was the last person to get down, because i was sleeping! woohoo!

"why didnt the people at least wake me up before getting down ler?? walao... sampai me selesa tidur thr until RapidKL guy knocked the window screen..."

ok, so i got on, this bus, a lot of people already... many were standing... "oh no, no more seat, cannot sleep already!... aiya..." BLING~~~ i saw a seat right behind! fuuh~~~ "YESSS!!! sleep!"

we were at Cheras batu9. and we moved on...

along the way, i saw one RapidKL stopped by the roadside.. "eh, what happened today ah? why RapidKL bus like this punya, mogok ka? engine got problem ah? apahal nih?"

then, another one!... "this is weird! 3 buses 'not in operation'... what is dis?"

orite... came the exciting part, when a car, more like a MPV, came next to the bus, on a small lane... i dont know who was at fault la, in this matter...

then the car like hampir kena langgar (kena kepit) by the bus, so it slowed down and the bus driver noticed dat too... the car advanced forward up to the bus driver and then the car went to in front and somehow like slowed down his car, it was like wanna pick up fight, you know, like wanna challenge with the bus la...

out of a sudden, it stopped! the bus stopped too... people inside terkejut, 'wooo~~~', 'oii~~~', 'waa~~~'... dats wat i heard fr them la...

the car driver came out, called the bus driver to come out to 'talk'... and the bus driver got down!
they talked, talked, and talked... i heard the bus kena slammed, again the passengers 'oi.. oi.. oik~~~!', 'apa nih~~~!...' all sorts of sounds, many stood up, moved to the front to watch... there was a lady shouted quite loud, it was making the whole scene 'big' la... so 'fun'... eheheh...

not until long, some motorcyclists, cars stopped by to watch the real-life drama... many in the bus with confused, 'what is this man~~ den smile and chuckle' face... talked with each other... whose fault is this, discussing with hand gestures like, u know the hip hop dancers or wateverr dancers they move their hands up & down, slide & tick, sway & fold, den like octopus hands fling here & thr... u know rite... dats how they did in trying to explain the car and the bus...

tiba-tiba, the guy punched the bus driver... he fell, and the guy kicked him some more... and the people just 'cheer leading' there, only after a while some came to their senses and ran to stop the fight... wa~~~ that guy in singlet really like mad man!!! can really sense the rage, the hatred, the 'hati tak senang', the 'api', the 'macho wanna punch u till death & i feel happily ever after' exuding from the scene... walao!

well, i didnt get to see the whole 'drama'... u know wat... i was still sitting thr, looking at the people... and the guy sitting next to me, he got up and went to the front, i think he wanted to shout 'cut' to the scene, i think only la, so taking this opportunity, i switched my seat with him... so i got to sit by the window! how cunning i am! gosh~~~

'who will be the peacemaker?' i thought to myself... looking at myself, and the people around, 'sigh~~~'

the end...

Busy... Busy... Busy...

really???

by Kathryn Kuhlman...

... One day, I looked up and said...

"Wonderful Jesus, I have nothing I can give You but my love. ... That's all that I can give You...

I offer my body as the living sacrifice... And if You can take nothing and use it, then use nothing... take it..."

It is not the silver vessel that He's asking for, it is not the golden vessel that He needs... He just needs yielded vessel...

Daddy... Papa... Abba... a Father's Heart

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revelation of God the Father's Heart



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5 C's

the popular 5 C's...

- Cash
- Car
- Credit Card
- Condominium
- Country Club (membership)

"... It arose as a popular joke based on certain truths attesting to the unstated Singaporean cultural ethos of materialistic obsession and aspiration to achieve these things in order to impress others, both socially, economically and sociologically." [Wikipedia]

well, today in the ICM office, don't know how we get to this 5 C's topic... oh, i remembered, we talked about getting married, and people nowadays somehow are looking for this 5 C as the criteria for their perfect match, bla bla bla... (coz i'm the only 'bachelor' thr -.-''', sengaja tu)

then, sampat here and there... so keluar la hikmat... the wisdom among the trashy jokes:

"we need one C, enough already... Christ Jesus... having C + Grace, we have all the richness and abundance..."

so, one C above all the other C's... Christ Jesus...

ok, Good day!

just wanna say it

oh, i left something out, which i was thinking of putting in the previous post :)

ermm... to all who know me, heard of me, seen me before... i hereby wanna apologize for any annoyance, frustration, anger, dissatisfaction, vexation and any other kind of displeasing feelings which i might have bring upon you...

alright, so we're good?

oh, there's one more thing. likewise, i accept your apology in return ;)

and, we're doubly good now? erhem... teehee

God bless!

"... ... ... ... ..."

looking at my past posts here... hmm, especially those few which sounded 'taboo?' or 'inappropriate', yea, sorry la ye, just trying to be expressive in a way that they project my current state of mind and emotion at that moment... eheheheh, oh well...

seemingly contradicting to being a 'good guy who is a Christian' which people imprinted in mind that 'a religious man shouldn't be like this or that... a Christian man is supposed to be like this or that, like super duper HOLY and like a god~~~, everything he does is goodness in people's eyes'.

SO~~~ if that man expresses a little of his feelings and thoughts towards certain issues, well, in a negative way (blurting out taboos in disguise - i guess it's speaking without any thinking or filtering with the brain, gosh, how silly)... what about it?

it's frustration...

he is a human too, who do wrongs sometimes as well, like you and me. learning from the mistakes and being transformed little by little everyday. i would prefer him to be open and not a fake, trying to hide the 'crumbling, rolling, gushing, melting etc' that happening on the inside.

are we to start distant ourselves from people like that man? rejecting him all at once? gosh, learning to embrace many kinds of people is truly a seemingly impossible mission. EMBRACE and TOLERATE...

of course, don't get me wrong, that doesn't give us the pass to do whatever we feel like doing or saying, right...

so, we ought to have the so-called 'self control' in our actions, words so that people around us who are watching and observing us don't get 'stumbled' on the very specific word or act or thought (which we often think doesn't really mean anything or having a HUGE impact, 'come on, it's just mere dust that can be easily be blown away from your skin...') from us.

in this sense, we have the power to build people up as well as the power to corrupt them!

... 'sigh' ...

things like...

- is it wrong for a CHRISTIAN (or anyone else) to gamble?

- is it ok for us to watch porn?

- is it fine to have our palm read or thumb prints analyzed... horoscope?

- and many other things which seem like blocking my mind now

(-.-''')

saying, "it's just a form of entertainment la..."

sound like compromise?? an intention to compromise with the truth or heavenly advice?

people can talk their logic out concerning these and their logic and rationale do really make sense! so firm as they make themselves sound like that others don't know what else to say, ... dumb...

after all,

a heavy SIGH~~~...

(with a hard screaming of 'HELP~~~!' shouting from deep within the heart... groaning to make all the clouds clear)

sounds familiar?

I have taken my stand.

Have you?!

... walao!...

interesting post on MalaysiaKini

http://www1.malaysiakini.com/news/121232#

written by a Sabahan...

well, i am still wondering 'what is Malaysia'...

being here, West Malaysia for about 6 years... the more ugliness i see... the beauty of Malaysia is no longer real... Sad man...

yet, excited!

enjoy reading...

(this isn't mine)

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I grew up watching Petronas Hari Merdeka advertisements portraying little Ah Chong, little Abdullah and little Ramesh playing happily together as children, and 30 years later as old men these three multi-racial friends would still be able to sit together having coffee at the same table.

As a school student, I noticed that the National Textbooks would always portray multi-ethnicity in their contents, having characters like Siti, Kumasari and Mei Ling harmoniously interacting and co-existing with one another.

I grew up having that image of Malaysia in my head and my heart, and living in Sabah does not make it difficult to believe that this is indeed what Malaysia truly is.

It is not a strange scene for the multi-racial (we have over 40 different ethnic groups in Sabah) and multi-religion people (Muslims, Christians of different denominations, Buddhists, Hindus, Pagans etc) in Sabah to sit together having coffee and mee goreng at the same table all the time.

In the late 1990's, I set foot for the first time on the land of Semenanjung Malaysia to further my study at one of the local university. My Malay Semenanjung roommate greeted me, "Welcome to Malaysia!"

Thinking she must have mistakenly identified me as an International Exchange student (from Indonesia, maybe?) I laughed and told her that I was actually from Sabah. To that, she replied, "Yes, I know that! First time here? So what do you think of Malaysia?"

Throughout the years, I was being asked a lot of questions by my fellow Malay Semenanjung friends, among others:

"Is it true that Sabahans still live in the jungles?"

"Do you live on trees?"

"Do people in Sabah wear 'cawat' all the time?"

"So how was your first time on an airplane?"

And as for Ah Meng, Balakrishnan and Ahmad having coffee together at the same table, it was almost non-existent that at that time I thought I was in another country other than Malaysia. The Malaysia that I thought I knew.

Malays would never set foot on a Chinese restaurant. Once I was having a meal with some friends in one Chinese stall by the roadside. A Malay man who happened to pass by spit on the ground near our table. I thought about the beautiful Petronas advertisement, and felt betrayed.

In the university itself, Malays would mingle among the Malays, the Chinese among themselves, the Indians likewise. Always unsure which 'group' we should 'belong to', Sabahans (Muslims and non-Muslims) would always opt to mingle among ourselves, and of course with our fellow Sarawakians (Muslims and non-Muslims).

I could still remember the time when the University decided to implement its 'integration' policy, in which they decided that allocations of hostel rooms for students should not be based on races and religion anymore. A hostel room should be shared by students of different races and religions, to promote unity.

The university students rallied around the campus, protesting the 'new policy'. Sabahans and Sarawakians could only watch in amazement.

But that was about 10 years ago. With more and more Sabahans and Sarawakians working and studying in Semenanjung, things must be a lot different nowadays. Are they?

This recent squabble over the name of God in Malaysia shocked us Sabahans, not because of the possibility of non-Muslims being denied the right to use the word 'Allah' to worship God, but because after so many years, surprisingly, there are still a lot that our Malay Semenanjung brothers and sisters do not know about Sabah and Sarawak.

Along with the questions on whether we still live on trees (Yes, they still ask that!), in their protest over the use of the word 'Allah' among non-Muslims, we could hear these remarks being made:

"Kita sudah cukup bertoleransi dengan mereka, tapi mereka pula mahu pijak kepala kita".

"This is a propaganda to confuse Muslims and convert Muslims to Christianity".

"The fact that you and your family are still a devouted Christian living in Sabah is a proof as well as a testament that for years ever since Merdeka, you fella have been allowed to practice your religion freely".

"Jumlah mereka cuma 9%, tapi Santa Claus ada di mana-mana."

"Bantah 1Malaysia!!!"

Sabahans and Sarawakians are natives of the beautiful island of Borneo, we were proud to call ourselves Malaysians after this small island happily joined Tanah Melayu to form Malaysia in the 1960's.

As natives of Borneo, we share the same Indigenous title with our Orang Asli and Malay brothers and sisters in Semenanjung Malaysia. And as such, we hold every single right as Bumiputra, or 'sons of the soil' (heheh!) as some people like to call it.

Some Malaysians are now proudly proclaiming how much they have 'tolerated' us all these years.

Definition of tolerate (Essential English Dictionary):

tolerate ['tɑləreɪt /'tɒl-]

verb

1. put up with something or somebody unpleasant

2. recognize and respect (rights and beliefs of others)

We are Bumiputra Malaysians, not PTI (Pendatang Tanpa Izin) that anyone should feel the need to 'put up with' us (are we unpleasant?). Yes, we appreciate it that you recognize and respect our rights and beliefs, but doing so and still treat us like aliens in our own land makes us wonder whether we are 'second-class' citizens in your eyes.

We 'fella' practise our own religion freely not because we are 'allowed' to do so by any human organisations, but because we have the human right as God's creations to do so.

Bantah 1Malaysia? What is 1Malaysia? Even before 'Merdeka', Sabahan and Sarawakian Muslims and non-Muslims have always been able to live together harmoniously and peacefully, despite our differences.

Most of our Muslim brothers and sisters in Sabah and Sarawak have no problems sitting together having coffee with their non-Muslim friends at the same table not because they 'tolerate' us.

It is because they embrace us.

Our Muslim brothers and sisters in Sabah and Sarawak are aware of the existence of the word 'Allah' in Indonesian-translated Bibles of their Christian friends for many many years, but they never accuse us of having secret agenda. They never get confused or get accidentally converted to Christianity. Is it because they 'tolerate' us?

No. It is because they embrace us.

Occasionally after work or during the weekends, we like to have meals together with our Muslim brothers and sisters. Sometimes we would have roti canai at Restoran Bilal. The next day it would be the Japanese Tauhu at Vui Kee. If we want to have nice ais kacang, we would go to Sharmis.

Is it because we 'tolerate' each other? Yes, when my friend insists on having ais kacang while I am craving for roti canai, of course we need to be tolerant with one another in coming up with the best solution.

But more than that, we also embrace each other.

When I first became a teacher 5 years ago, my Headmaster asked some of the non-Muslim teachers to help out as AJK Hadiah for Majlis Tilawah Al-Quran for our district. Being a small school, we didn't have enough teachers. No problem. We were more than happy to help out.

"But it's a Majlis Tilawah Al-Quran. You have to wear tudung", my Headmaster said.

"No problem", we said. We giggled gleefully as our fellow Muslim colleagues helped us put on the tudung, we even experimented with different styles and tried to match it with different kerongsangs. I was pretty sure that I looked like the famous singer Waheeda at that time.

We did that, not because we 'tolerate' our Muslim colleagues. We did that because we love them. We embrace them. We trust them.

Our students got the second place in the Nasyid Competition which was held simultaneously with the Tilawah Al-Quran. No words could express my feeling when the little children ran towards me with their arms open, pure innocent joy in their eyes, declaring proudly "Teacher! Teacher! We won! We won!"

I remembered opening my arms as wide as I could and EMBRACED the little ones, one by one.

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(to the owner of this article, thanks for sharing)

Oh Malaysia...

what is happening to Malaysia!?

TOO MUCH DRAMA!!!

seriously, act with poker faces some more, so cool!

some over exaggerating their act, walao!

how should we respond?

"let's clap clap our hands la... *@&#^%@&"

only people who are insecure needs ISA...

brainwashing??!

scape goats??!

LIES??!

S**Ts!

Bab1 s**ts... (whoops! ;p)

Malaysia needs HEEEELLLPPPPPP!

(oi, people, you listen or not, your negarakuku is getting funnier and funnier)

p/s: rumbling nonsense i guess...

the 'Name'

[Alkitab Terjemahan Baru (TB)]

Yohanes (John) 17: 11-12

[ ... Ya Bapa yang kudus, peliharalah mereka dalam nama-Mu, yaitu nama-Mu yang telah Engkau berikan kepada-Ku, supaya mereka menjadi satu sama seperti Kita. Selama Aku bersama mereka, Aku memelihara mereka dalam nama-Mu, yaitu nama-Mu yang telah Engkau berikan kepada-Ku;... ]

Yohanes (John) 17:24-26

[ Ya Bapa, Aku mau supaya, di mana pun Aku berada, mereka juga berada bersama-sama dengan Aku, mereka yang telah Engkau berikan kepada-Ku, agar mereka memandang kemuliaan-Ku yang telah Engkau berikan kepada-Ku, sebab Engkau telah mengasihi Aku sebelum dunia dijadikan.

Ya Bapa yang adil, memang dunia tidak mengenal Engkau, tetapi Aku mengenal Engkau, dan mereka ini tahu, bahwa Engkaulah yang telah mengutus Aku; dan Aku telah memberitahukan nama-Mu kepada mereka dan Aku akan memberitahukannya, supaya kasih yang Engkau berikan kepada-Ku ada di dalam mereka dan Aku di dalam mereka." ]

Keluaran (Exodus) 3:13-15

[ Lalu Musa berkata kepada Allah: "Tetapi apabila aku mendapatkan orang Israel dan berkata kepada mereka: Allah nenek moyangmu telah mengutus aku kepadamu, dan mereka bertanya kepadaku: bagaimana tentang nama-Nya? - apakah yang harus kujawab kepada mereka?"

Firman Allah kepada Musa: "AKU ADALAH AKU." Lagi firman-Nya: "Beginilah kaukatakan kepada orang Israel itu: AKULAH AKU telah mengutus aku kepadamu."

Selanjutnya berfirmanlah Allah kepada Musa: "Beginilah kaukatakan kepada orang Israel: TUHAN, Allah nenek moyangmu, Allah Abraham, Allah Ishak dan Allah Yakub, telah mengutus aku kepadamu: itulah nama-Ku untuk selama-lamanya dan itulah sebutan-Ku turun-temurun. ... ]

Yesaya (Isaiah) 43:1

[ Tetapi sekarang, beginilah firman TUHAN yang menciptakan engkau, hai Yakub, yang membentuk engkau, hai Israel: "Janganlah takut, sebab Aku telah menebus engkau, Aku telah memanggil engkau dengan namamu, engkau ini kepunyaan-Ku. ...]

Yesaya (Isaiah) 40:25-26

[ Dengan siapa hendak kamu samakan Aku, seakan-akan Aku seperti dia? firman Yang Mahakudus.

Arahkanlah matamu ke langit dan lihatlah: siapa yang menciptakan semua bintang itu dan menyuruh segenap tentera mereka keluar, sambil memanggil nama mereka sekaliannya?

Satu pun tiada yang tak hadir, oleh sebab Ia maha kuasa dan maha kuat. ]

Wahyu (Revelation) 2:17

[ ... Siapa bertelinga, hendaklah ia mendengarkan apa yang dikatakan Roh kepada jemaat-jemaat:

Barangsiapa menang, kepadanya akan Kuberikan dari manna yang tersembunyi; dan Aku akan mengaruniakan kepadanya batu putih, yang di atasnya tertulis nama baru, yang tidak diketahui oleh siapa pun, selain oleh yang menerimanya." ]

What is a 'name'?

What do you know about 'name'?

The sum total of a person's internal and external pattern of behaviour is gathered up into his name... Knowing the name of a person is equivalent to knowing his essence...

a person's name is somehow very personal.

calling a person's name is a dearly act.

as been spoken in the book of Revelation, at the end of it, whoever triumph, a new name will be given by God, known only to Him and the receiver...

just like our 'family name' such as, 'Ah Di', 'Ah Nong', 'Den' (instead of Danny) etc, which only people close to you call us, our family members, our parents because they see us since we were born, they observe every bits of our life, and so they call us the 'names' to resemble 'who we are' to them, dear to their hearts...

the name which God calls us is different to the name/names/nick names that people call us (which many times sounds stupid, 'haunting', useless, meaningless, hurting, downgrading and bla bla bla)... God sees more in us, beyond what people sees, thinks of us...

"My dear, you are my beloved..."

He calls us as one who cares, who loves and one who always long to sit with us, embrace us... smile, laugh, cry with us... to go through everything we are going through... HE SEES & HE CARES...

DO YOU HEAR HIM CALLING YOUR NAME?

in a gentle whisper...

as who God reveals Himself as to Israel and many more people including us, He makes Himself known to His objects of love... He wants the people to know Him dearly, calling Him as who He reveals Himself as...

My Heart will trust in You

I'll walk closer now on the higher way
Through the darkest night will you hold my hand
Jesus guide my way

O you mourn with me and you dance with me
For my heart of hearts is bound to you

Though I walk through valleys low
I'll fear no evil
By the waters still my soul,
My heart will trust in You

O You counsel me and You comfort me
When I cannot see,
You light my path

My heart will trust in you